Two nights ago I had the scariest dream of my life. I had been asleep for about three hours and I dreamt I could hear male voices outside my home. Then I heard someone in the house. All of a sudden I was being spooned by what felt like a male. I 'felt' the smell of dirty, sweaty clothes. If you are familiar with 'Bob' from Twin Peaks you might know where I am coming from. I tried to scream but all that came out was a feeble, guttural 'no' over and over, as if my vocal chords were frozen. The more I tried to shake the 'man' off me, the tighter his grip was and I felt very suffocated.
The closest I have ever been to this before is when I was having frequent dreams about family members pressuring me to succeed and perform to the point where they are disparaging me in the most hurtful ways. It was then that I woke up screaming for them to stop.
Opinions anyone? If it helps, I have had one illness after another for the last year including a benign cyst being removed from my breast. I contracted staph in the process and it had to be treated with heavy antibiotics. I had the flu for a month in that time as well starting anti-ds after a six month break while I dried out from constant binge-drinking. I'm feeling pretty drained right now. I dread going to bed tonight.