Godawful Night Terrors

Or at least they would be, but I seem to be indifferent to how most people would feel.

I frequently have night terrors about children dying, screaming, bleeding. The children are impaled on iron gates in what seems to be a shipyard/graveyard. But they are still alive screaming "Why won't you help us?" And then there is this man who is eating the children alive, toes up. He also rapes them and their mothers (or so I would assume) I hear every bone crunch, i see all the blood spill, i hear there cries. But I'm watching. the whole time. I never wake up. I begin to taste blood. Am I the guy? Then the guy gets cement blocks on his feet by some cop like figures but they were not in cop uniform. The guy is pushed underwater, where he should theoretically drown. No, his skin flips inside out and he is all white and zombie like. There is a child swimming in the bay, but he gets her too. When I finally do wake up, my cheek is always bloody and covered in bite marks. I reckon it's to stop from screaming at night.

However, I feel nothing really about it. It's trouble some yeah, but I've kind of grown used to it.

Then again, I never really feel any emotion. It's been like this since childhood.

What does this mean?
Thanks.

Couragewolf, have you talked to a doctor about this? You haven't hurt any one, so you have nothing to be ashamed of.

Hi. I had night terrors for a long time. I know everyone is unique so I can only give you what I figured out for myself, you do with it what you can ok?
I was every character in my dreams. Sometimes the murderer, sometimes the hunted. It was all different parts of me. The vulnerable, the afraid the angry the vindictive the desperate. I wasn't able to acknowledge all these parts of me consciously. By my mind still held all this in and released it when I TRIED to sleep.
Therapy would help you so much. But one thing I can tell you is that they will ask you what each character means to YOU.
I developed several techniques to take into my dream world and they really helped. I also had one Medication that helped shut them out long enough to get rest. If you would like to know more I'm happy to share.
Thinking of you,
One

I would like to know more One. I posted about mine and dont' want to hijack but mine hasn't been getting any play the last 2 days and would like to know how to get some sleep.

I'm sorry I missed your other posts about this Tristin. The Op has not responded so I don't think they will mind us chatting here.
I have several but I'll start with this.
I used to have night mares of a grizzly bear that would chase me down no matter where I was. It could always find me, and I knew it was going to kill me. I would wake just before it go rip me apart, screaming my head off.
I have a beautiful old mexican blanket that Iike. The weave is sort of rough, so it feels good against my skin. Its heavy and tough.
When ever I would have extreme anxiety I would wrap it really tightly around my body, almost like it was a giants arms protecting me. It helped ground me. I also brought the blanket with me when ever I was in the Hospital---so, it was something special to me.
When the dream got really bad, I decided that the blanket was going to come with me in my dream, and it would become an shield that could protect me from the blows of the great bears paws. It took a few tries, but it helped.
It could be anything. A ring, a violent teddy, etc, just something you have that you can take to bed and sleep with, that could be imagined into being something more powerful that what your dreams threat is.

It important to remember that if you try this, play out the dream in your head while you are awake at least a few times. Have the outcome of your dream be less frightening but not too complicated to achieve. The simpler the solution you choose the better.
I hope it helps Tristin, I have other things I used as techniques too, so let me know how you are doing.
Take special care, Are you going home Monday?
One

hi one, i'm not sure if what is happening is night terrors

Maybe the fact that your aunt didn't help you is something that you are beginning to process. Kinda like grief.
You can ask for the meds to be decreased right? Perhaps you could ask a staff member to please wake you if you start to look distressed while sleeping?
Something you could try, is to ask your aunt why she's there.
That Grizzly bear I told you about, thats what I did. It was roaring and about to kill me and instead of running, I turned around and yelled "what do you want!?!". It stopped and said it had a thorn in its paw and it needed help to pull it out. (I think theres a childrens story that is similar about a lion). I said I'd help Him if he wouldn't hurt me. He agreed and I pulled it out. He never said thank you, just turned around an walked away. That was it, the dream stopped.
Try giving yourself permission to control the dream, like you are directing a play. Imagine the dream and create a safe word. "time out!", have everything freeze, step back and think of what you want to happen next. You have to do this awake first.
Our brains are full of neuron pathways right? Like little electric pathways all connected together. Every time you think something new, you create a new option for your brain to use. The most frequently used paths are or most immediate thoughts. So if you imagine a new ending to your dream several times, your giving your brain an alternative path for when you dream.
Practice!
And Oh, I send you a 2D cup of coffee! and....XXXXXXX(you)XXXXXXX
One

Hi One!

Hi One,

Hey Cinder,
You mentioned a week heart too. Complete exhaustion could account for it. Your DID to so maybe you have been transitioning?
When I had insomnia I would walk into walls all the time, I was always finding new bruises and had no idea where I got them. It was like I was so tired I was numb and stoned.
When you are admitted the first thing they are going to get you to do is sleep. Without sleep we just cannot function or think properly. Bring a comfy blanket!
I'm subscribed to this thread so Keep in touch here or in Pms all you need.
Sweet Dreams Soon,
One