please help me

I have 9 years recovery from alcoholism. I was in a store and noticed nail scissors in my purse. I stole a bunch of stuff I can't even wear. I was caught. I have a lawyer, I'm 44 years old, no prior offenses. Charged with two felonies. The plea date - I'm guilty so I will do a plea bargain in 21 nov. I have a security clearance. I'm scared to death and will have to kill myself if the felony sticks, I cannot work with a felony. please help me I'm so scared all the time -

I have posted this for Mark also...

Felonies? If you dont mind my asking, why are you being charged with TWO felonies?

Im assuming your in the US, if you steal 401$ or more of merchandise, its considered grand theft.

Contact the ACLU, something is seriously screwy if your being charged with TWO felony counts.