My Little Problem

From reading up on shoplifting, I'm not a typical case.

I'm not depressed, or medicated, I don't steal stuff I don't need and I'm always aware of what I'm stealing.

My family is lower-middle income, they are a wonderful family and always try and get me what I want. I have a lot of stuff.

The reason I started stealing was I wanted nicer make-up. But I couldn't afford it, so I started stealing it. I have had about 4 trips total of major theft. Totaling about $400 worth of make-up.

I don't really feel bad about taking the make-up. I only feel bad about lying to my parents. I show them a small quantity of what I stole, claiming I bought it, so they won't be confused when I'm using it, not having ever seen it before.

I do this all extreamly premeditated. I go online and research the make-up, make a list, figure out the best colours, and arange to spend a few hours at the mall. Then I pick out what I want and slip it into my bag. I always buy a peice of candy, or some gum or something, so it doesn't seem suspicious that I was there for so long.

After I steal, I get a high from the adrenaline, but it wears off pretty quickly, then I just get excited about my new make-up. But, I feel a little bit weighed down by this secret right now. It's just adding to all the other stress in my life.

What should I do? Should I tell my parents? Should I just dicipline myself and save up for the make-up? Or should I just ween myself off of shoplifting make-up.

I've thought about, but have not shoplifted anything else. I feel other things are more reasonably priced than the uber-expensive make-up.

Thank you.