Confused White Woman

I read most of the posts from the OP and seems she has giving up on the forum since she hasn't posted in over a month, but if she's still reading the thread...

First of all, you all need to stop spying on your spouses, it is a total lack of respect and trust to be going through his personal searches etc. Unless there are high probabilities of someone cheating, then you should respect one another's privacy. Secret fantasys are that...secret!

There's nothing wrong with asking one another what each others fantasies are, so why not do it? If one does not want to share it, leave it alone. This problem was created by the O.P., not by her husband. Obviously he didn't want to share it. The fact that both of them are racist (well...they no longer seem to be) may make it a little difficult to be honest with one another, but nothing that can not be handled with good communication skills.

Now, something tells me she's already acted on it, and if she hasn't, she can't harldy wait to do it. Now since both of them fantasize about that, they can either talk it out and do it, or just do it without the other one 'knowing' about it. Silly game, but if it spices up their sex life and get it out of their system, everything gets old at some point.

Life is short.

I wish them prejudist luck!

mart111 wrote:I read most of the posts from the OP and seems she has giving up on the forum since she hasn't posted in over a month, but if she's still reading the thread...

First of all, you all need to stop spying on your spouses, it is a total lack of respect and trust to be going through his personal searches etc. Unless there are high probabilities of someone cheating, then you should respect one another's privacy. Secret fantasys are that...secret!

There's nothing wrong with asking one another what each others fantasies are, so why not do it? If one does not want to share it, leave it alone. This problem was created by the O.P., not by her husband. Obviously he didn't want to share it. The fact that both of them are racist (well...they no longer seem to be) may make it a little difficult to be honest with one another, but nothing that can not be handled with good communication skills.

Now, something tells me she's already acted on it, and if she hasn't, she can't harldy wait to do it. Now since both of them fantasize about that, they can either talk it out and do it, or just do it without the other one 'knowing' about it. Silly game, but if it spices up their sex life and get it out of their system, everything gets old at some point.

Life is short.

I wish them prejudist luck!

I know it's so wrong. It's nasty and makes me feel ashamed sometimes.

But those black guys are just soooooo big. I often wonder what one of them would feel like. It really gets me going no matter how hard I try to deny it.

Its like my body betrays me.

DenAm wrote:
I know it's so wrong. It's nasty and makes me feel ashamed sometimes.

But those black guys are just soooooo big. I often wonder what one of them would feel like. It really gets me going no matter how hard I try to deny it.

Its like my body betrays me.

Sorry, but I don't believe you. First, there was a husband who somehow magically disappeared, then
a shower of platitudes.

I think you're a troll.

@ Arvan - All of the facts that you've made, concerning the state of black Americans, are good and well. and should be noted.
But, trust me when I say that it serves to only fuel DenAm's (and those like her) obsession . . . believe me. The more that blacks are portrayed as "thuggish" the more that southern bred women love it because of the taboo. Afterall, that kind of thinking is sorta what brought her to write the OP in the first place.

However, I am beginning to wonder about your statement that she (he) is a troll. You could be right. Most all of her replies seem to keep saying the same thing:

Denam wrote;

"I know it's so wrong. It's nasty and makes me feel ashamed sometimes.

But those black guys are just soooooo big. I often wonder what one of them would feel like. It really gets me going no matter how hard I try to deny it.

Its like my body betrays me."

This almost sounds like something straight out of an interracial porn script. Either way, real or not, I'm afraid that all of these posts are indicitive of the difficult social times that we are all facing - and that obsessions like these are cropping up more and more to serve as a sort of diversion for our minds in my honest opinion.

Carl S. wrote:@ Arvan - All of the facts that you've made, concerning the state of black Americans, are good and well. and should be noted.
But, trust me when I say that it serves to only fuel DenAm's (and those like her) obsession . . . believe me. The more that blacks are portrayed as "thuggish" the more that southern bred women love it because of the taboo. Afterall, that kind of thinking is sorta what brought her to write the OP in the first place.

However, I am beginning to wonder about your statement that she (he) is a troll. You could be right. Most all of her replies seem to keep saying the same thing:

Denam wrote;

"I know it's so wrong. It's nasty and makes me feel ashamed sometimes.

But those black guys are just soooooo big. I often wonder what one of them would feel like. It really gets me going no matter how hard I try to deny it.

Its like my body betrays me."

This almost sounds like something straight out of an interracial porn script. Either way, real or not, I'm afraid that all of these posts are indicitive of the difficult social times that we are all facing - and that obsessions like these are cropping up more and more to serve as a sort of diversion for our minds in my honest opinion.

Posting on these forums usually goes this way: genuine OP writes something about her/his problems, then follows an exchange of opinions and advices. In a thread, the OP deepens their analysis or broadens the amount of info, and a thread ends - either with or without resolution- with more info and situational development.

Here, after 1-3 posts (written, by the way, correctly but also too rationally, without typos present in almost all first posts), there goes the same yada yada. Since I've seen various trolls and wannabe porn-"writers" write small posts that are actual fictions on some forums- the example is these ones: http://www.topix.com/forum/news/sex/TORRF9RQI1VBN14BI or http://www.rooshv.com/i-dated-a-girl-wh ... echnically - of course, I haven't read all this, but from cursory read one can easily conclude that most, maybe 60%-90% posts are fictions and not actual events: I would say that the OP in this thread is just a troll.

Taboo is sexy in pornography, not as much in real life.

For instance, there is a lot of rape-fantasy porn out there that men and women both take pleasure in watching, but most won't act on it.

There is tons of taboo and down right raunchy porn out there that people like. Cuckold seems to be one rising in popularity. Interracial cuckold just pushes the envelope.

I am a white man who has looked at the type of porn you describe, however it doesn't consume me as seems to be the deal with your husband. I also would never want my girlfriend to act on 99% of the stuff that turns me on in porn.

People watch raunchy porn because it's something different that they can get off too as a mental fantasy instead of a physical one.

I would advise you not to just assume your husband wants you to cuckold him with a black guy. As I said, a lot of this porn is about mental stimulation (pure fantasy) and not wanted to be physically carried out.

Its not a race thing. It's a size thing. Those black men are all so big!

read in Playboy that when a white guy wants a large black man to have sex with his white wife its self humiliation ....so why does a white guy want to humiliate himself? well he hates himself ..why does a white man hate himself? Has anybody told him white men are bad? somewhere along the line these white men believe they are bad and feel guilty about the treatment of African males in this country..so do white females..I remember in my school the black guys would tell the blonde and red head girls that if they didnt go with them their racist..they would immediately say yes to these black guys..they feared someone would call them racist..When I was a kid it hurt my feeling alot to see this...a white girl with a black guy..now later in life I have thoughts about seeing a black guy do my wife..I still get hurt when I see white women with black guys..so why do I humiliate myself with these thoughts? google communist agenda and I suggest infowars.com ..because their is a war on for your mind..This crap was put in our minds ..we didnt just turn over one day and say "hey lets let black people do us"

ncjoe wrote:read in Playboy that when a white guy wants a large black man to have sex with his white wife its self humiliation ....so why does a white guy want to humiliate himself? well he hates himself ..why does a white man hate himself? Has anybody told him white men are bad? somewhere along the line these white men believe they are bad and feel guilty about the treatment of African males in this country..so do white females..I remember in my school the black guys would tell the blonde and red head girls that if they didnt go with them their racist..they would immediately say yes to these black guys..they feared someone would call them racist..When I was a kid it hurt my feeling alot to see this...a white girl with a black guy..now later in life I have thoughts about seeing a black guy do my wife..I still get hurt when I see white women with black guys..so why do I humiliate myself with these thoughts? google communist agenda and I suggest infowars.com ..because their is a war on for your mind..This crap was put in our minds ..we didnt just turn over one day and say "hey lets let black people do us"

do you have a link to the article?

DenAm,

I am a early 40's male and this has happened in my marriage. It began with my finding this kind of porn on the internet. The first time I brought it up with my wife, she got really upset. We were both raised in a very predominantly white area, so white that we really had no idea of how blacks are any different than color.

The turn on was so powerful for me that I did not stop bringing it up to her, and eventually we were on a trip out of town; had gotten dressed up, and were at a club and a younger black man started dancing with her... I don't dance. She ended up having several drinks and dancing with him for maybe a half dozen songs, and the dancing started to get dirtier.

Long story short, I asked him back to our room just to see what would happen. I went out to the car to get a bottle of wine, and when I came back in they were making out passionately. She acted like she had forgotten I was in the room. She gave him oral sex and he was definitely very well endowed, and she swallowed, something that I have never seen.... She then had unprotected vaginal intercourse with him, and not only did not ask him to pull out, but wrapped her legs around him to hold him in, also very different. Shortly after that, he left, and our discussion about what had happened was pretty much me saying "wow"... and her saying "omg what did I do?" and that she "didnt want to talk about it". SHe didnt even get up to clean herself, just rolled over with her back to me and went to sleep. She seemed mad at ME!

The next morning, though, she initiated sex, and when it escalated, she pushed my head down there. Needless to say i was still pretty worked up at the thought of what had transpired, and I did as she wanted. When she was done, she got up, peeled off her underwear and playfully flipped them at me, and went and got into the shower. I masturbated.

This has become our sex life now. I have not penetrated her in over a year, and when she or I initiate sex, I always am pushed down there to give head, then given panties afterward and have to please myself. She has been with several different black men in a couple years, and will go quite a stretch until she breaks down and goes out and gets one, but the pattern is always the same- she has unprotected sex and then is scared enough to not do it for a while, and the guy always pursues her afterward and she breaks it off.

It is something that she does not really permit discussion about, so I never know when it is going to happen, other than she leaves for a couple days, and packs skirts, dresses, high heels and lingerie, which of course I inspect and always find to be matted. Her way of telling me, though, is to always initiate sex upon her return home, whereupon she will push my face down there, and when she gets turned on will start telling my how big and black he was, how she couldnt help it, how she is ful of his c*m, etc.

SHe has obviously replaced our sex life with the fantasy completely, to the point that we no longer have sex besides me giving her oral, and even then I suspect she is fantasizing that I am "cleaning her". The dangerous thing for you to realize, is that if you live out this fantasy, you will likely be in the same boat. I have wished for a "normal" life to return, and tried to initiate "normal" sex, and like I said, I always end up "down there". The biggest problem about it, is that once the thought is there, even if you don't want to think about it, it happens anyway. It is so bad, that I cannot even watch a video of a woman masturbating ( "j/o encouragement") without fantasizing that she is fantasizing about being with a black man. I don't think either of us could stop this if we tried.

Its a really wierd place to be in...