Confused White Woman

OP is most likely troll, white or black guy.
I can't imagine woman being obsessed like this.

I FOUND YOUR LETTERS TRULY INTERESTING / I'M A WHITE 57 YR OLD MARRIED MALE & MY WIFE IS 51 / WE HAVE BEEN MARRIED 35YRS & HAVE BEEN SWINGERS MOST OF THAT TIME / HAVE HAD A GREAT LIFE & TO A POINT A VERY HOT SEX LIFE I THOUGHT / ABOUT 2007 I MEET A BLK MALE FROM A ADD TO MAYBE HELP SPICE UP A DRY RELATIONSHIP / WE HAVE HAD 3-SOMES MOST OF OUR MARRIED LIFE & HAVE ALWAYS HAD A GREAT TIME WITH NO PROBLEMS / 1ST HE TOLD ME HE WAS WHITE ON THE PHONE BUT NOT FEELING LIKE A RACIEST WHY NOT / WENT HOME AFTER MEETING HIM & HE PARKS OUTSIDE MY HOUSE 5 MIN LATER & KNOCKS ON THE DOOR / I ASK HIM IN SINCE I JUST FOUND OUT HE LIVES BLOCKS AWAY / MY WIFE IS NERVOUS BUT MEETS HIM & WE CHAT /SETUP A MEET A FEW DAYS LATER / NOW AT THIS POINT I HAVE TO SAY I HAD BEEN DEALING WITH A MEDICAL PROBLEM & NO ERECTION FOR A LONG TIME / SHE NEEDED TO GET SOME RELIEF & I WANTED TO HELP / MISTAKE ONE WAS TELLING HIM THIS / LATER ON FOUND OUT HE TOOK 2 VIAGRA BEFORE HE CAME OVER / NEVOR TOLD ME ABOUT THEM LONG STORY SHORT HE & I HAD DECIDED TO KEEP IT DOWN TO A HOUR MAZ SINCE IT HAD BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE WE PARTIED / WE GO UPSTAIRS AND HE'S ON HER LIKE A FLASH & STARTS TO EAT HER OUT / OK COOL SHE LOVES THIS / 45 MIN LATER HE GETS UP FROM THAT AND STARTS TO ###$ HER LIKE I HAVE NEVER SEEN A GUY ###$ / 3 HOURS LATER HE COMES !! / OK I'M HOT BY NOW & AT 20 MINUTES INTO TI I REALIZED I HAD JUST ###$ MYSELF LIKE NEVER BEFORE / IF I TRY & STOP IT SHE GETS MAD / YOU WANTED ME TO TRY THIS / I'M HAVING A GREAT TIME / THIS IS WHAT YOU WANTED RIGHT / $#%^ I'M SCREWED EVERY WAY / AS HE GETS OFF HER SHE SITS UP AND VERY LOUDLY TELLS ME THAT THIS WAS THE BEST ###$ SHE EVER HAD / I WANTED HER TO KNOW THAT AFTER ALMOST 28YRS OF BEING MARRIED I WAS SO ######6 HAPPY THAT SHE FINALLY GOT A GREAT ###$ / I DID NOT EXPLAIN IN MORE DETAIL TILL THE NEXT DAY WHAT HAPPEN & WAS SAID / BEFORE THIS WHEN WE PARTIED WITH WHITE COUPLES I GOT LAID EVERY TIME SHE DID / NEVER HAD A BAD EXPERIENCE / I NEVER THOUGHT TO READ UP ON THE DIFFERENCE OF ######6 BLACK & OR WHITE / HUGE MISTAKE ON MY PART / WELL SINCE THEN I HAVE NOT HAD SEX WITH ANY OTHER WOMEN / SHE HAS NEVER HAD SEX WITH A WHITE MALE SINCE THAT DAY / TRIED TO UNDERSTAND HER NEEDS & WE GOT INTO THE BLACK 3-SOME LIFESTYLE / SEEN HER DO THINGS SHE NEVER DID WITH ME & WILL NEVER DO / WATCHED THEM BRING EMOTIONS OUT OF HER THAT I HAVE NEVER EXPERIENCED WITH HER & NEVER WILL / I USE TO HAVE TO SIT IN THE ROOM AS SHE WAS BEING NAILED FOR HOURS BECAUSE SHE WANTED ME TO BE PART OF THE EXPERIENCE SO WE COULD SHARE IT / I LOVE HER SO MUCH BUT HAVE GOTTEN OUT OF THE BEDROOMS / CAN COME & GO AS I PLEASE & JUST RECENTLY SHE IS OK WITH SEEING THESE GUYS ALONE & IM STAYING HOME / LUCKY ME RIGHT / AT THIS POINT SHE & I HAVE SEPARATE SEX LIVES / THERE WILL NEVER BE ANY ROMANCE ANY MORE / I AM TRYING TO CLIMB OUT OF A DEEP DEPRESSION ABOUT HOW WORTHLESS I AM AS A MAN & THAT I WILL NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS EVEN COME CLOSE TO ANYTHING LIKE WHAT A BLACK MAN CAN DO TO HER IN BED / PART OF THIS IS WHITE HUSBANDS FAULT BY NOT PAYING ATTENTION TO THE WIFE / MAKING HER FEEL SPECIAL & TAKING TIME TO PAMPER HER /GUYS IN NONE NIGHT I SAW THIS GUY ###$ MY MARRIAGE 7 35YRS OF WHAT I THOUGHT WAS A GOOD RELATIONSHIP /BELIEVE IT MEN / ITS ALL GONE & SHE CAN FIND THESE GUYS ONLINE ALL DAY LONG / SHE HAS 60 MALES IN HER LIST THAT ALL WILL COME OUT TO HAVE SEX WITH HER / NO DATE JUST MEET & GO TO A ROOM FOR HOURS / I HAVE HELPED HER GET THIS FAR FOR THE PERPOSE OF BEING ABEL TO WALK WAY NOW / SINCE SHE IS AT THE POINT OF JUST MEETING ANY BLACK GUY FROM ONLINE & BEING IN BED WITH HIM IN LESS THEN A HOUR I'M DONE / I WISH HER ALL THE BEST & SHE WILL ALWAYS BE MY BEST FRIEND BUT WITH IN WEEKS NO LONGER MY PATNER IN MARRAGE / NO THEORPY OR COUNSLING WILL EVER FIX THIS / SHE IS TOTALLY GONE BLACK & WILL NEVER SLEEP WITH A WHITE MAN AGAIN / AND IN THE END YOU KNOW I DID THIS TO MYSELF BY ASKING HER TO TRY IT & MEETING THAT BLACK MALE / $#%^ IT HERTS / MEN DO NOT TRY THIS UNLESS YOU READ UP & TALK TO OTHERS ABOUT WHAT HAPPENS & MAKE SURE YOU WANT TO OPEN THE GATES OF HEAVEN FOR YOUR WIFES LEGS JUST BECAUSE YOU THINK ITS HOT / GO BACK & MAKE YOUR WIFE HAPPY & LET HER KNOW YOU ARE TRYING TO BE RIGHT WITH HER / I HOPE THIS HELPS JUST ONE COUPLE FROM MAKING A HUGE MISTAKE

Enough with this stupid trolling.

DenAm is most likely a guy posting as a female. He sent me a very dirty private message about worshipping "black tools" in response to a post I made about my husband's cuckold fantasy. It seems like he gets off on cuckold stories.

DenAm wrote:Hello

I am a married white female in my early 30's. I have blond hair and am what most men would consider to be good looking. My husband and I have been married for 6 years. I recently discovered he has been looking at Interracial Pornography on the internet. Almost exclusively black men having sex with white women. There seems to be an theme of White Wives cheating on their husbands with well endowed black men, sometimes with the white husbands being forced to watch.

This was a very disturbing discovery for me. I was appalled and surprised that my husband has so much of this stuff on his computer and in his internet history. What's even worse is he looks at "cuckold" porn and many of the women in these videos have the same look that I do. Thin, white women with with blond hair and blue eyes. If you do not know what interracial cuckold is, it's pornography where a white man watches his wife wife have sex with a black man. The black man always has a much larger penis and the white man is verbally and physically humiliated by his wife and the black man. Why does my husband look at this stuff? Is it possible that he is thinking of me while he watches it? Why would he fantasize and masturbate to thoughts of me with black men?


As I found this pornography on my husbands computer, I began looking at it more and more. My husband doesn't know that I know about his fetish. It began is detective work to find out what turns him on and what he spends his time looking at.

I was raised in a racist family in the south and was taught to stay away from black men. I have never been with a black man. And now here is the even bigger problem.


It's beginning to turn ME on as well. When I was looking at my husbands computer there was one picture of a blond girl that looks a lot like I do, with a very large black man. I was shocked and excited at the size of his penis. I hate to admit it because it makes me feel so ashamed, but I masturbated that night while viewing the picture. I didn't want to, but I was so turned on that I felt like I couldn't stop myself. I felt dirty afterward but it was just the beginning of my addiction.

Now I've began viewing these interracial picture of black men with with women on my own computer. These fantasies are dominating my sex life, and I've lost interest in having sex with my husband. Just the sight of a black mans penis seems to get me going and I can't stop thinking about it. One re-occurring fantasy I have been having is being "taken" by a group of 5 large black men. When I go out in public and see a black man walking by, I think about him sexually even if my husband is by my side.

This is an intrusive fantasy that has been affecting my marriage and sex life. I would like to know what I can do to stop it, and get my husband to stop looking at it as well.

DenAm -

Many couples have dealt with this and similar issues in a peaceful, positive way - it's about communicating. When you are in bed with your husband get a conversation going - ask him if he has any sexual fantasies that he would like to share. After trying this a few times, tell him you had a gal friend who once shared her fantasy about being with a Black man. Say you were surprised but the friend said many White women/wives fantasize about it and many have relationships with Black men. Many of those husbands find it hot to watch their wives and are are happy about their pleasure (compersion). In most cases it strengthens marriages due to the communicating and trust involved, as long as it is done openly.

Talking about it is as far as it goes for many couples - it gets them turned on and they have active sex lives. This is a good "middle ground" and can be win-win. Taking the fantasy to real time requires more communication and limit-setting agreements along with proper screening of Black partners.

It's worth the effort.

Bar a few posts this thread is full of pornographic content, racism and probable trolling.

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