Am I Straight, Gay or Sexually Dysfunctional?

When we ask these type of questions about ourselves, you'd think an obvious answer would pop up into our thoughts and it would be a settled matter; guess it's not that easy.

As I have shared here on other people's topics, I have talked about myself, my Gay or Bi side as I have had experiences with both and really enjoyed them.

One question that comes to mind as I am writing this description of me out is, why should it matter? To answer myself, it matter's because of the identity that comes from knowing.

Year's ago Homosexuality was studied as a dysfunctional practice between the same gender's; in some realms of our society, I guess it still is considered abnormal or dysfunctional as men were created for women and visa versa. Which is plain to see as one human specimen has an outtie (cock) and the other an innie (pussy).

As a side note: I will not refer to either appendage as a penis or a vagina, old terms for an old world; NOT ME!

Being lonely, extremely lonely which went on for nearly 10/15 years of no intimate touch, and I loving sex, sought intimacy out wherever I could find it. I went on a few dates with ladies that I knew, but nothing came of them. I then began to become a loner of sorts. I was raising 7 kids on my own, so I wasn't living in a cave, but my inner thoughts had me deep into porn, jacking off at least once every day, more if it kept me up all night; which happened at times.

On these sites every night, days if I could grab sometime to myself, I began to view Gay sites, boy did I get left behind on cock sizes. You don't need a magnifying glass to find my cock, normal is as normal is, you know 6.5" at best. 7", 8", 9!" longer! fatter! Boy did I want some of that; them.

So in time I began to read Gay stories, watch Gay porn. I got to where watching heterosexual porn was not a turn on for me. I liked, like still, Lesbian and Gay porn. What was happening in the heterosexual world of men with women was not happening for me, it bugged me to see, watch the reminder of this; so even now I do not intentionally watch it.

With the kids now grown, my college days were over, I worked in the mortgage arena for a while. In 08/09 when the mortgage world pretty much fell apart for everyone, I too lost everything, job, house, life, etc. So facing homelessness I moved in with one of my daughters. Not a bad gig, but man, where the hell did they learn to raise their children?!?!?!

Still single in 08, some years after my divorce, I began to hit on guys using Craigslist, back in the day when their Community Page was far better than it is today.

I met a few, no-shows, and I too bailed on one guy, just didn't feel right, actually I was afraid of how what may come came.

Finally after a few hits I met a guy named Jae, or at least that is what he told me his name was. After a few tent raisings we met at his house.

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No need to relate the whole story here unless you want to read it, PM I'll share all of it there. Needless to say though as a first timer, I liked playing and sucking Jae's cock, he called me a late bloomer in the life style. Ok not sure why I would be, but...

When I was 9 years old an older cousin wanted to play, "I'll suck your, if you'll suck mine." nothing came of that game. When I pulled my mouth off his cock, he just laughed at me and turned over as we were having a sleep over; I on the bed, he close by on the floor.

After Jae I met three other men, none of which had much to offer and nothing came of my time with them either.

To conclude: I had been married for 23 years, divorced for now nearly the same (19 yrs). I have been with both men and women, and I will honestly have to say I perfer men to women. I do have a lady friend, not sure where that is going. She knows nothing of my Bi/Gay side, not sure she ever will.

So, according to you a responder to my delima, Am I Straight, Gay or Sexually Dysfunctional?

TY for your replies, I look forward to readng them.

No replies since the first posting, I'll add my own 2. cents to me.

I am straight, but lonely. I haven't had any intimacy is over 18 years. Any touching with either gender is something I would strongly consider doing, just to feel wanted by another human being. By such, I have sought out male, sexual companionship, and enjoyed it, which led me to my original question;
"Am I Straight, Gay or Sexually Dysfunctional?"

"Sexual dysfunction refers to a problem occurring during any phase of the sexual response cycle that prevents the individual or couple from experiencing satisfaction from the sexual activity. The sexual response cycle traditionally includes excitement, plateau, orgasm, and resolution." - Online Source

At 64, I am horny all the time, and even though I only have one testicle (gave one up to a fertility test), I cum enough.

We all know the definition of Homosexual which doesn't mean Gay by the way. As their relationship goes, if it is a sexual release I want to engage in with another man and or woman, am I a homosexual or bi-sexual; or just a lonely straight guy? You tell me, what do you think?

Situational bisexuality? Like when men engage in same sex behaviour in an all-male environment (boarding school, prisons, etc) and then drop it as soon as that one-sex environment is left behind?

Bisexual doesn't necessarily mean you have to have the same kinds of feelings, emotions, or attractions to both sexes; just that on some level, you're willing to do things, I think. I tend to be at least 50% (or more) homoerotic in physical desires but tend strongly towards heteroromantic in emotional desires. Leaving out disassociative talk of multiple 'mes'.

I would have to dig thru the forum to find it, but we've had a poster who insisted they were 100% gay and could only have sex with a man, yet just as vociferously insisted they could only want the companionship of a woman, who they also insisted they 100% could not, would not have sex with. I'd call that an extremely unfortunate flavour of bisexual, but that's just me.