Switching genders when watching porn

I am not gay being i dont think i could ever fall in love with another man nor have i ever had the desire to. I am very emotionally and sexually attracted to women. I am not a fan of gay porn its actually a huge turn off for me personally, but i love straight hardcore porn and when i watch it my mind automatically puts me in the females position wich does give me amazing orgasms, but no matter how hard i try i cant put myself in the mans position i always endup putting myself in her body instead of his. This is very confusing yet satisfying in a sexual way. Does anyone know what is going on here?

I am not sure if my role-playing experience tethers with yours or not, as some of my replies have been tagged as "off topic," and not posted by the Admin here, but here goes.

I am ((?)) I guess Bi-sexual, but when I watch porn I have a hard time watching men with women, it is a major turn off for me. Lesbian video's, Gay, those I'll watch, even Bi video's take me back to not liking what I am watching. I guess I switch roles; I never thought of it that way, like how you put it.

The men in these heterosexual video's is getting something I don't have, not even sure that I want, but if I did, I don't.

Watching two women engaging in good acting as two first time lover's with each other is a turn on for me as I imagine a real-life scene being acted out with me being one of the women. Two or three men more less reacting as if in a amateur video, not professionally tapped. I can put myself in those scenario's a lot easier then when watching a heterosexual relationship. That might be because I haven't been in one in like forever; not being in one is easier than being in one, so I cannot relate at all any more to a "normal" mwm relationship... Does this make sense?

One thing that drives my appetite for sexual relations with online porn is intimacy, I don't have any, at all, anywhere, so how does the human mind compensate for what doesn't feed it? Role-playing is one answer.

TY for your post. Reading these and replying is helping me out a bunch, more than you would know.

I have a lady friend, but wonder will I be able to maintain a "normal" relationship with her, if the friendship moved in that direction? I honestly do not know.

Porn does set up the viewer for failure, men and women, it creates unrealistic assumptions into the world of real-sex, real-relationships. Brain activity gets the ball rolling, trigger's emotions, feeds the senses, we either need to absorb our addictions, let them pass or implode.