I find it all disgusting

I'm a woman in early twenties. I lost virginity when I was 19 and had few sexual experiences after this.
I find both male and female body beautiful ( although I'm only turned on by men ) except genitals. I perceive both penis and vagina as incredibly ugly. I can't understand how anyone can enjoy and get turned on by looking at them. Not to mention semen and vaginal lubrication. They're just too disgusting even during traditional sex. I did manage to do blowjobs in the past, but I had to try really hard not to vomit. I'm also uncomfortable with kissing and being kissed on anything other than the mouth. Both of them are kind of nice, but at the same time I find bodies filthy, so it's unpleasant. I guess make out it's the only thing I have no problem with.
I'm not misogynistic or anything like that. It's only about sexual stuff.
I would just let it be like that, since I have no intention of starting a family, am a loner and don't really need a boyfriend or anything, if it wasn't for my high sexual drive. I'd really like to have some sex, but at the same time I'm avoiding it since it's so disgusting, and it's driving me crazy.
But seeing therapist is definitely out of the question.
Does anybody have some advice?

Hm that is tricky. It is completely okay and normal that you are repulsed by the genitals. Human sexuality is diverse, and the spectrum is huge with many different variations on it. I also am not attracted to penis (and I am gay). It seems strange why I don't like it, but it is fine.

Now you're problem is that you want to have sex, but are simultaneously disgusted by parts of the human body. Have you tried dating apps or websites? You can chat with guys there and discuss your preferences. Trust me there are definitely compatible guys are there, that are perfect for you Do not worry about that! I thought I was alone with a sexual dilema of my own, and posted on here. To my great surprise guys messaged me about the same problem. The problem resolved when this happened, after years of complete anguish.

My point is, that there are guys out there that are exactly like you, disgusted by the same things and turned on the same way as you. That is comforting and satisfying to know. Now you just have to find those guys. I wish you the best of luck!