A year ago, I was brutally raped outside whilst walking together with a person whose intention was to help me get to the hospital (after falling and hitting my head). I was very dizzy after this fall and also I had been drinking with my friends earlier that evening.
Happily, I was just in court and he is looking at 5 years in prison. But the days in court affected me a bit. I used 5x more sobril than I usually do, that week..
After this happened, I have absolute no trust in men what so ever. I have had sex, but the only sex I've had was casual drunken sex after a night out. When I tried having sex sober with someone I usually trusted, I just had to leave the room due to a panic attack. (I have panic-anxiety).
Also, I used to get "crushes" all the time and totally fall for guys all the time, while now I have absolutely no interest in having any romantic/sexual relationship at all.
I am bisexual and I think maybe I'll find it easier to trust another girl, but I am not sure if it will make any difference.
How can I try to improve my trust issues and get my romantic life back?