Anybody else dealing with emotional/stress-related disorder?

hi,
I've been dealing with conversion disorder for about 7 years now(diagnosed almost 4 years ago FINALLY), and I seem to have developed a sexual problem as a result of that, or at least that's the best my doctors can tell me. When I first was diagnosed, I was in a relationship with a man(i'm bi), and we did not have difficulty having sex. He broke up with me later, and I went through a pretty empty period, with a brief and unfulfilling sexual/dating relationship with a woman(she was so uncomfortable about being lesbian that she wouldn't get undressed or have me do anything for her...), dates here and there and no relationships, until last February, when a man tried desperately to turn what I only wanted to be a friendship with benefits(I couldn't take the emotional committment at the time) into a dating relationship. We had one attempt at sex, which turned out to be a very bad idea. Although I was sexually excited, my vagina was too tight to permit him entry.
I was hospitalized for other reasons the next week, and he broke up with me shortly after that.
I was able to have a more fulfilling experience with a woman I was involved with shortly after, and I do not have difficulty experiencing orgasm.
I am now in a very emotionally healthy relationship with a man, but most times our attempts to have sex are very physically painful for me. We can do other things and orgasm, but vaginal intercourse is what we want and it has been difficult for both of us that our attempts have been met with a lot of physical pain on my part. I assumed that it was a muscle tension issue, because my main symptom with the conversion disorder is uncontrolled muscular movements(rocking, violent muscle jerks, difficulty controlling the bladder-yep muscles involved there too), but my boyfriend tells me that that can't always be the case because many times I seem physically ready for him to enter, but when he tries, it hurts(and usually for a a few days after if we go ahead anyway). lubricants don't really do anything - we've tried both regular and the new warming stuff, and I've got birth control in place and we're not using a condom(ie he can feel what's going on). Any suggestions or advice would be great.

alycorn

Hi there,

Im afraid I dont have any advice but I thought Id tell you your not alone! I too have had this problem since having Conversion Disorder. Im plucking up the courage to go to the doctors to see if there is anything I can do. If I find anything that works, ill let you know!

Has anyone else got any helpful ideas etc? I really need help with this!