anti depressants turned me into a sex addict

before i go into this. im NEW here. so HELLO ALL.

thanks for making the time to read this as its very important to me, and im on my last leg before i end my life. i know i shouldn't say that but i want to be honest. i feel like i have ruined my own life and dunno how i got here. so here i go

call me a sex addict, a depressed, sad, lonely, lost, open, real, honest, genuine, anxious, tightly sprung, strung person whatever!

i have been running around naked, and getting arrested, drinking and taking all sorts of medication, going to nude beaches and public places and playing with myself.

i dont know why... i just do. since i have been taking this medication i have not been myself. its like i have control but the medication overrides it. so im doing it as my body as me, but im not me if that makes sense. like i dont know what im doing or why im doing this. when i could just go watch a porno at home and stay out of trouble. or have sex with my hot girlfriend. yes i have a hot girlfriend who loves having sex twice or three times a day.

weird thing is i cant cum on the medication so it makes me have sex more and more and then still cant cum, so im sexually frustrated and now im doing things in public. i dont know why, i have tried to understand this when off the medication, but when im off the medication im violent, moody, aggresive, scared, and even worse i dunno.

i have come to access my memory straight sometimes and i think it might be i do this because i feel like that might make me cum in public because of reaction or distraction, choice. im sorry if this sounds well. im on here for a reason and im trying to help myself overcome this and help myself get or go back to normal and i feel like the need to change or go back to myself or normal as you might call it i need to understand it or why im doing it.

is it the medication, well i have come to think it is because i never used to do this until i started taking the medication a few years ago or about 3 years now.

CRYS FOR HELP. on my last leg of taking my life because im so close to going to jail for things/actions im doing that i dont know how why or what for, sometimes where i am when i OD or drink... hard to explain. brain can recall later from past tense and no its not attention seeking or lies. its me trying to be open, understand it and help myself

???

Have you talked to your prescribing doctor about this? I am NOT a psych or therapist of any kind. This is just an uninformed guess. I wonder if this might be an aspect of mania. Which can come out of anti depressants, since once the depression is lifting. Other issues which were "hidden" by the depression, can come to the fore.

Do NOT kill yourself! Do not quit any meds medication cold turkey! If this is med-related, then there'll be a way to tackle the issues by adjusting what you take, in discussion with your doctor. It might take some experimenting, but it's worth doing. If it isn't the meds, then there are alternative approaches to take. Again, talking to a therapist if possible could really help. Things may be a mess now. But that ISN'T how they'll always be.