Sex Addiction/Suicide Attempt

I'm 36 years old, I am a sex addict, I am addicted to sex, porn and masturbation, unlike a lot of sex addicts I don't want to cut down sex, I want more and more of it, I just can't get enough, I want to be a porn star, I want sex 24/7, because I can't get this, it has destroyed my life, I am in hospital right now, I have just come off the intensive care unit and I'm now on a normal ward, I tried to take my life, I overdosed on my anti depressants and epilepsy tablets, also what tortures me everyday is I haven't had enough sex, and I can't make up for lost time, I didn't have sex with a woman until I was 25, and I have only had sex about 12 times, this has scarred my mind and tortures me every single day, although I survived my suicide attempt, I would still rather be dead, I feel like my life is over, I have nothing to live for, can anyone relate?

Yeah i understand you
i am also addicted to sex and mustrubation..... first it was only mastrubation but now its also sex on top of that i always thoght that i will miss somthing and even started to pay hookers i had so much sex in my life but for what point..... mastrubating is a wast of time when i was a teenager i was mastrubating 7 times a day...... totaly addicted but im doing better now just to let you guys know you are not alone