New here

Hello,
I am new here, and this is the first time I have explored any kind of support for sex addiction. I am a 55 yo married woman, married for the second time for 5 years. While I love my husband (which sounds lame even to my ears given my behavior), I have repeatedly been unfaithful in one form or another during our entire relationship. This has ranged from chatting with men I’ve met online and sharing explicit photos and videos to actually having a one night stand. I tend to gravitate toward this behavior when I feel bored, lonely, angry, or am experiencing some other kind of negative emotion. I have previously battled addictions with opiates and alcohol, and I have had 2 different therapists tell me they think I have a sexual addiction. I think they are correct as I have no other explanation for my behavior. I finally came clean with my husband about the one night stand at the urging of a marital counselor. I don’t know what is going to happen going forward, but would love any feedback from anyone who can relate.

Hello and welcome

How are things going since you fessed up to the one night stand?

I know if I get to dabbling in things like porn, etc, it's often the same triggers you mentioned. When angry, I'll use that as an excuse to justify it.

I think, to an extent, a lot of behavioral addictions, regardless of what they are, can go back to that good ole dopamine hit, whether it's acting out sexually, or being addicted to video games, or being addicted to showing out on social media for those Likes, etc. Not saying they're all exactly the same, just I seem to think they all fall under a broad umbrella of us finding ourselves hooked on those reward chemicals in our brain, no matter what route we use to get there.

For me, sexual vices are a hard thing to whup.

One thing I didn't catch is whether you had this issue with your first marriage, or if it's just this second go-around.

Hi
I certainly hope you get through this were you need to be. Maybe your husband will understand you? I have had 3 ways and open relationships sexually and enjoyed it. There arevmen that can understand what you are going through. Maybe it could turn into a positive.

For me I like having sex after she has been with other men. I dont like being involved everytime but that feeling is something I enjoy. Not into men but into that specifically. So maybe he has some fantasies?