So, I belong to a pretty strict religion that classifies porn and masturbation as serious offenses.
I became sexually active at age 17. I'm now 50. I was picked up by a cougar in her early 30s, and we spent the next 3 months going for it pretty much every day as we were both up for sex all the time. Anyway, she was pretty demanding in bed, and she transmitted the attitude to me that if I wanted to have a girlfriend, I needed to be prepared to rock her world. So, I developed the attitude of sex is to make her happy and masturbation is to make me happy.
I'm married and I get it on with my wife a couple of times a week. It's a performance in which I show her that I can rock her world. But, when I'm in the mood, as I said, I'd rather just spend a couple of minutes looking at some nudie pics and beating off, a practice I engaged in pretty much every morning.
But now, my religious leader has classified me as a sex addict and I have to go to a 12-step programme. I hate it, but I go every week. I'm also taking naltrexone 50 mg p.o. daily. It's cut my acting out from every day to once every other week. But, that's considered not good enough. I need to go 90 days abstinent to lift my suspension.
I don't consider myself a sex addict because I never really considered masturbating once a day to be interfering with my life. But... here I am. How can I go 90 days without?