Addicted to wearing women's clothes

Hi everyone, I'm a 20 year old male.
Ever since I was little, I've been excited about wearing women's clothes (panties, thongs, tights).
I often jerk off while wearing it.
I feel a lot of guilt after masturbating.
I have already thrown away the underwear I bought several times. And I buy more several weeks later because the excitement and the desire come back.
When I haven't masturbated for a long time I love to wear it and it turns me on a lot, but when I ejaculate the urge goes away and I'm ashamed of myself.

I wonder if I have to force myself to stop and resume sexuality without this addiction or can I buy other clothes and be ashamed of myself

Thanks for your answers !

Hello, and welcome to the forums!

This seems like a borderline fetish (which can't be discussed in PF) but I'm going to exercise a little moderator discretion here. It's not a 'fetish' in the same sense of other underwear things I can think of.

'have to' 'force myself' 'stop'

You're the only one in control of an obligation to quit this, or not.

I'm not sure how common this is, but I'm thinking it's not too terribly uncommon, either. Starting around puberty I discovered the same thrill. And it didn't really leave me until I was probably up into my thirties.

I don't know if it starts with any idea in mind other than perhaps some pubescent autogynephilia- the desire to be the object of your attractions. It's taboo, exciting, titillating.. at least to this adolescent it was.

I'm sure some do it and eventually identify as trans. Or gay. Or a straight crossdresser. I mean there are so many things that could be behind something like that.

To me it seems rather innocuous. Other than feeling ashamed of yourself, what harm is there? I happen to be bisexual; I wouldn't say my habit, while I had it, got in the way of my social life. Eventually I stopped. My last time was well into my 40s and it was more for a little solo 'nostalgia' and to be honest it just felt weird and out of place. As if it was being forced.

Personally I suspect a lot of boys experiment with that then drop it. Some sooner, some later- some never. I'd say as long as it's not getting in the way of a social life then perhaps you shouldn't beat yourself up so badly over a private little peccadillo. Who does it harm?

When I was about 9 years old I would watch my mum getting dressed, I didn't have a mum thing what so ever, just loved seeing her get dressed putting her bra, panties and nylons on, when she was out I would try on her bra, panties, and nylons, they felt wonderful on my skin, when I reached 11I would regularly masturbate wearing her clothes, when 19 I bought my own lingerie for masturbation, I still do this now 63 years on, I didn't have any guilt then or now, it was private to me and did know harm, I'm also 100% heterosexual and don't consider being a crossdresser, so you don't have to feel guilty what do ever, so if you enjoy masturbating in women's clothes it's private to you and nothing to be guilty or ashamed off, enjoy it like I do

Bandit1200 wrote:When I was about 9 years old I would watch my mum getting dressed, I didn't have a mum thing what so ever, just loved seeing her get dressed putting her bra, panties and nylons on, when she was out I would try on her bra, panties, and nylons, they felt wonderful on my skin, when I reached 11I would regularly masturbate wearing her clothes, when 19 I bought my own lingerie for masturbation, I still do this now 63 years on, I didn't have any guilt then or now, it was private to me and did know harm, I'm also 100% heterosexual and don't consider being a crossdresser, so you don't have to feel guilty what do ever, so if you enjoy masturbating in women's clothes it's private to you and nothing to be guilty or ashamed off, enjoy it like I do

I know this is an older post but I found this intetesting because I did this same thing but with step mom. When my parents were gone I would masterbate into her panties. It was some of the best memories too. I think its more comon then we think because she actually caught my step brother doing the same thing later on after I did it. True story.

It's nothing to feel bad or ashamed about, I do it too and I love it, *mod edit* I've wanked into ex girlfriends bra's and knickers, and bought my own online and wank into them too.