by Iamnother » Wed Aug 01, 2018 3:56 pm
Hello everyone. I am 24, married, and have one child. These past few years I feel like I've been coming into myself. It's HARD to explain. The way I look at it is there is ME and there is HER. SHE is like a lustful demon on my back, attaching herself to my spine more and more each day. An animal, sex crazed, unstable, provoked by anything (fear, happiness, sadness, anger, nervousness, inadequatecy). I feel like I can't get sex or ANYTHING sexual off my mind for one second and I need to have it everyday, even multiple times a day. My husband satisfies me fine, but I'm not getting nearly as much as I crave. I don't talk to him much about it because I try to compromise with his "normal" sexual behavior. But sometimes it just takes me over. If she doesn't have her way I get moody and angry, I sometimes push him away or make rude comments then I feel so bad afterwards...until my appetite comes back then I'm angry all over again. She just wants to go free, let loose, exhale, be everything she can. It's like an anticipated high. I LOVE MY HUSBAND and would do nothing to hurt him, but if this has so quickly grown into what it has become, I'm afraid how much further it could go. Someone please help me figure out what I'm dealing with.