I need to know it's not me

Well... I'm not trying to lead you on in any direction. And no one here can offer a Dx. But it might be worth skulking about in Bipolar, and posting some info about those moods there to see if it sound familiar to some of them. I know some folks with Bipolar also experience bouts of hypersexuality. And something about your original post made me think of that..

Hello mrpatterson and thanks for the post. Me and you are quite alike as I actually think the same exact way. This is why I have also never been unloyal to my husband (on top of the fact that I love him and I love my family). I definitely commend you as a man and wish you the best of luck.

Did you ever struggle with these things in the past?? Did something specific lead you to your desires? Or was it spontaneous??

-- Sat Aug 04, 2018 10:04 am --

Snaga,

I'm definitely open to anything right now to get answers. But I am generally an optomistic, free going person, who ALWAYS smiles. No one could ever say I was mean or acted crazy. The mood swings i have are inward struggles, no one knows about them but me (my husband sometimes notices them). Not saying that those are the dire signs of bipolar disorder... I guess I should read into it more.

Thanks for commending me Iamnother but it's funny because I don't feel honorable at all with the things I fantasize about doing!

Your question is interesting because in fact I did go through a period two years ago that was similar. I think it was just a process of getting a little hornier every day and not thinking much about it until one day I took a significant step when I started looking on the internet for "casual encounters" - not reaching out but just fantasizing. Also reading a lot of postings on the internet (e.g. Reddit) by people who push their boundaries. (And to be honest reading through the postings on this forum). All of this really sent me over the edge because then I started thinking about sex NON-STOP. Really involved fantasies. So this went on for about three months. Eventually I pulled the trigger and responded to a posting. She wanted me to send a D pic. I started to get ready to take it when I'm like WHAT THE ACTUAL ###$ AM I DOING? After that I walked it back.

So here's the weird thing - and why I mentioned the point about it possibly being a phase. About six months ago I happened to remember that summer and thought "that's so weird how I went through that because I don't have those feelings anymore at all".

But now I'm right back there again!

mrpatterson,

Thank you for your response to my question. And that's why I'm here. I figured everyone started this journey just feeling really horny and that then progressed to the unimaginable. I don't want to get there. It's HARD for me to talk about these things and express myself as I am very introverted with my emotions, but I don't want to wait until it maybe progresses.... I want help now. This is scary.