Years of Addiction, Need Help!!

To summarize and keep things anonymous I'm at a point of desperation and have been addicted to porn and masturbation (from once every 2nd day up to 4x daily). I was exposed to porn quite young I'm talking from the age of 9 or 10 and its spiraled out of control and been part of my life as long as I can remember. With a bit of research I think I have a Voyeurism Addiction and I seem to get aroused sharing photos of past sexual partners.

I was already getting off to porn for years once I met my first girlfriend and we would both take pictures and share them anonymously online. This was fuel to the fire and couple years after I had another girlfriend over a 4 year period where I got addicted to showing her off. Problem is this relationship has ended 7 years ago and have been hooked on her photos ever since!

Its effected my sexual drive, every relationship ive had, my interest in real sexual partners, my motivation levels and mood on days I give. The second its over I get filled with disgust, guilt and depression. I've tried going cold turkey in the past and lasted a week max, I notice patterns where I can't think rationally and give in, even tried swapping to normal porn but always revert to either my ex/past partners or people I know.

I've literally been in this cycle for about 14 years and to think of it I lost a parent back when I was a teen so this ended up becoming a comfort zone for me. I am totally LOST on how to get help, if I can be helped, what my options are, etc. Everything in my life is on a positive but I feel trapped and permanently held back until I can overcome this! IM READY FOR CHANGE! I NEED CHANGE!

If you've read this far thanks for listening and I would APPRECIATE ANY advice or guidance, expert or not. Also if anyone can relate...

Thanks

Offhand, I'm thinking nofap or SAA. Maybe something that you can go to meetings, or have an accountability partner....