Small Strategy

Trying different strategies to deal with my addiction. Since at this point it's a problem of the mind I try to shift my energy and focus and ask myself what my heart wants, not what my head wants. Didn't help me last night, but I'm going to persist for now.

Something awakened in me last night. My spirit felt very light and happy and then I felt a pain. I know any addiction is done to avoid pain. We all have some pain in our lives, in our souls. The difference is how we deal with it.

There's only 1 way to deal with the pain, to take it head on. We accept it and then healthy boundaries get established and our minds, body, and esteem (soul) heal. I talked aloud, "I'm in PAIN!!!" I'm learning by acknowledging that I am in fact burning (that's what the pain feels like), it's actually helping me to deal with it. I've never done this before.

Hopefully by talking to myself and telling myself I'm hurting, it will help me to abstain.