Introduction

My name is Miranda, but I go by Randi. I was told about this forum by a person I know. They said it was a place I could talk without judgment about things I have done/still do. I am convinced that I am a sex addict. I haven't had actual sex in a few months (my last boyfriend was a jerk and I am feeling kind of gun shy), but I masturbate a lot. It is compulsive, I feel like I need to do it and I can't stop. I have spent hours doing it, some days, and haven't gotten things I needed to do done. I do it so much that sometimes it causes me pain. In the past I have had sex with people I shouldn't have and in places that I shouldn't have. I look at porn all the time and it feels like the main thing I ever want to talk about is sex. I feel like I am crazy (because of this, but also for other reasons). I also have severe depression and have thought about killing myself. That part isn't real bad, right now, but I have come close in the past (though, obviously, I haven't done it). I have cut myself, but I haven't done that in a long time. I've used drugs and alcohol, before, though I have almost completely given those up, too. But I still have my major mental problems!

You're welcome here, Randi. Seems like you have a lot in common with people here. I hope the forum can be helpful for you. Keep posting!

Thank you, so much. Sometimes I just need to talk and vent about what is going on with me. I said that my depression hasn't been as bad, but today it has gotten bad, again. It is usually bad on holidays and yesterday was Thanksgiving so I thought it would be bad, but it wasn't. Now it is the day after and I thought I was safe and it has gotten bad, again. But thank you for the welcome and I hope that I will be able to talk to people on here who have similar issues.