First time here. Glad there's a forum

I'm an older guy (in my 40s) who recently married by all accounts one of the best women ever. We had a child recently and he is also the best thing ever. My problem is I have an insatiable appetite when it comes to sex.
My wife and I went through a rough period when she caught me sexting (well via email) with several women and the funny thing is that I don't have to actually have sex with them but I get a tremendous charge out of having sex discussions. Those discussions were never going to go anywhere, but today I did have sex with an old acquaintance and I am positively sick about it.
I do watch porn a few times a week and I masturbate to it. I was sexually abused by my father and 3 brothers growing up.
I sometimes wonder if I'm ever going to be normal and I really don't want to screw up the best thing I ever had. Anyone in a similar boat?
Emery

It probably doesn't help much, Emery. But I don't believe in "normal." What's important is what you're comfortable with. Not the ways you might clash with arbitrary rules set up by society.

Is there a particular thing / feeling that triggers your urges to sext / arrange a hookup?

I'm going through something a little similar. I am not married, but I do have this "need" to sext and talk about sex, watch porn, masturbate, and have sex with the wrong people. I worry about being "normal", too, but I agree with Ada that there really isn't a "normal" so I try not to think about it, too much.

Hi Emery, I just joined the forum and my situation is similar. I just posted my story so I guess you can read all of it when it's approved. My situation started when an old friend from highschool started sexting me. Long story short I ended up meeting 2 different prostitutes. I too have a great marriage and don't want to completely lose it. It is teetering right now so I am desperate for some support also.