I want to have sex with my cousin

Let me start with that I know this is sick, but I can't help it. I'm in love with my cousin. We are both 13 and look alike. We spend ALOT of time together. I started feeling like this a few months ago. Sometimes when we're alone she will get on top of me, or I will get on top of her and I will get hard. Three times it's led to making out and once I even mastrubated over her. I have done everything feel her vagina, squeeze her boobs. Once we even too our tops off. And once I even went down to my underwear. We don't kiss much we just touch each other fiddle with each others parts and almost sometimes get down to sex. I don't know why but we both like it. It first happened once when we were "wrestling". She for somereason turned off the light. It was night so we couldn't see but I kissed her. That led to us fully going under the covers hands wrapped around each other excessively kissing. Then I worked my hands up her shirt into her bra and began squeezing her boobs. She let out a moan and I kept doing it. Then she pulled off her shirt and squezzed her boobs which were clearly visible. I like it and pulled open her bra and once again began to touch them. Then I pulled off my shirt too. She began reaching down to my penis. I then krept my hands down her short shorts and began to feel her vagina, even pushing finger in slightly, once again she liked it. Then without taking off our shorts I began humping her. By now we were sweating and breathing hard. I feel her boobs a few more times and touch her vagina once more. Then after that we put on our shirts and kiss and roll around a little more. I'm afraid it might lead to real sex. I know it's sick but I like it and it's hard to say no. Can someone please help me.

I hate to break this to you, but you have been having sex with your cousin.

1. "Real sex" does not depend on vaginal penetration, nor does it require an orgasm. You have been "getting it on" with your cousin, and she's been "getting it on" with you. And that's not necessarily a problem, or wouldn't be if you were an adult.

2. Having sex with a cousin is not "sick," so you are not "sick". You are a 13-year-old with a natural sex drive that will find release where it can. By the same token, your cousin is not "sick". Just because society says you can't have sex with a cousin doesn't mean that sex with a cousin is necessarily bad. It is illegal in some jurisdictions, and not in others, and there is only a slightly greater risk of children from such a union having birth defects than for the general population.

3. A 13-year-old having sex with anyone is not a great idea. Neither of you need a pregnancy in your life, especially since your cousin would be the one to get pregnant, and there would be social hell to pay within your family and within your community. Nor do you currently have the financial ability or maturity to be a father. In short, you are playing with fire, and you really do have to stop. If you find that you just cannot stay away from your cousin, or she from you, at least stick to mutual masturbation! And, if possible, find an adult you can confide in, preferably not one with any church affiliation and one who can be trusted to treat your revelations with confidentiality.

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Myotherlife wrote:3. A 13-year-old having sex with anyone is not a great idea. Neither of you need a pregnancy in your life, especially since your cousin would be the one to get pregnant, and there would be social hell to pay within your family and within your community. Nor do you currently have the financial ability or maturity to be a father. In short, you are playing with fire, and you really do have to stop. If you find that you just cannot stay away from your cousin, or she from you, at least stick to mutual masturbation! And, if possible, find an adult you can confide in, preferably not one with any church affiliation and one who can be trusted to treat your revelations with confidentiality.

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Yes, this is definitely true. You are not sick. A lot of people have these desires (including me), as I'm finding out more and more. You're going to hate to hear this, but a lot of people don't always think clearly when they're 13 (or 22 like me). A lot of cultures do not frown on relations between cousins. I actually have friends from Iraq who are married, and they're cousins. If you really love her, tell her you want to wait, and that you want what's best for her. That may include you in the future, but you should slow down a bit now, and maybe talk to a counselor about it.
If you're looking for advice, this is what a lot of people are going to say. The morality is a whole other issue, but most people would agree with what's been said so far...

Maybe I'm amoral or something but the only thing I see wrong with what you are doing is the chance of pregnancy. Of course the law has its own set of rules as does society. But you could be doing the same thing with the girl down the street because you are all horny kids and discovering the world of sex. I'm not saying to pursue it or not, just that what you are feeling is natural.