HELP ME URGENT.. SELF DESTRUCTIVE PATH..SEX ADDICTED

HELP ME URGENT.. SELF DESTRUCTIVE PATH..SEX ADDICTED

im 27 male from india. im single.
i have never had penetrative sex till date ..dont know if i can claim to be virgin..
but i had indulged in kissing,body to body, handjob, caressing, boob sucking etc..

currently im unemployed... i had my business before infact i had 3-4 of them neither worked.. i was in relationship befoe but only long distance not intimate ones.

i dont earn anything.. no income but i have been stealing my parens money in different ways..

im addicted to masturbation and mailing through enternational similation by girls n pay them.. i expect them to love me ..'
im visitin arnd 2-3 times n week ... im stealing money frm parents, credit cards , selling home stuff like my mobile n saying that it got lost or credit card stolen belive me im making the most belivable xcuses.. now i hav no sourse to fund my addiction.. i actually need llove n afection but no serious relation coming my way..pls help me its taking toll on my physcal n mental health i hv bcome sluggish gained weight n wake up very late.. help me im become more criminal minded to fuel m addiction.. plss plss plss help

viewed by many but replied by none.. please some angel here come to my rescue.. i ned ur help

When you make a post on these forums, you will always get more views than replies. People are not as comfortable, or care enough, as much as you and I to make a post. That being said, there isn't much I can do for you; You have paved a great path for yourself by talking about your own personal fallout, but I have no guidance for you. You already know what you've done wrong, and what paths you have taken to getting your 'fix'. I feel that you are the only person in control of what you go through to fuel your online addiction. If feeling loved really helped you, would it not make sense that you would feel better after paying for it? But, that isn't the case. It's not helping you because it's not providing you the comfort that you're seeking- only a short-lived dopamine rush. That isn't love, and mixing it up with masturbation can and will take you further down the path you're going. You must find something other than pursuing your ideal of love to occupy yourself; you mentioned that you're gaining weight- pick up exercising, work out, go for a run, go swimming, yoga, whatever helps you feel physical exertion. You also mentioned you have no money, instead of masturbating- continue searching for work, every time you fill out an application or apply in person, you rolling the dice for potential income. The more places you apply at, the greater chance you will have at making the income you seek. Finally, if you feel like your online endeavors are hurting you or people you love, then I recommend that you stop going to those sites and finding a less extreme (and free) alternative. I will not tell you to continue going to those sites because there will be no benefit to come from it, you are looking for love but the only thing you are allowing yourself to feel is the satisfaction of lust. Love will never be achieved this way. I wish you the best on your journey, and just be patient- people who reply are out there! With everything, it just takes time.

thanks for ur reply n suggestions.. will try ... also i wanted to say its not online but im aactually going to massage parlors for happy endings n everything except sex

I'll bet your parents would be glad to pay for counseling if this is ruling your life so much. Wanting to be loved is an addition to plain sex. You need to develop healthy relationships with girls. Would that be any more destructive than what you are doing now. Don't let this wreck your life and try to find someone who can provide love, as well as sex.