Sex Addict who is broke and thinking of doing porn

Hi there. I'm a 31 year old female who works as a server at a casual fine dining restaurant. Business is usually lucrative but as of the past 3 weeks it is awful. I already had to borrow 200 from my dad and so I need to find extra work. I also start school back up at the end of August. So, to find another job is highly stressful for me. I started doing webcam modeling and have gotten comfortable taking my clothes off for men, heck I don't even have to touch them. I've been doing it for a week now and still haven't made as much as I want. So, I decided to go to a site for jobs in the adult industry. I just did my first porn audition and enjoyed it, until I talked to an ex of mine who disapproved of it and then all my past religious feelings of guilt started trickling in. I'd be making a lot of money if they accept me and only have to be with 3 guys in a month, which I've already done with one night stands and without screening for stds. If I had enough money, I wouldn't be doing this, but I feel trapped. And I feel under pressure now as well to do it. I just feel sick from all the bills piling up and don't want to start another job where I work on my feet. I have back problems and sometimes it is hard for me to get out of bed from working on my feet for 5 hours onward. I have terrible social anxiety so I don't want to go on tons of interviews when they probably won't hire me for my conflicting schedule anyhow. I'm just running out of answers. I don't want to lose my nice apt or my car. I don't want to wait tables anymore, I hate it. I already feel like a whore serving people anyways, might as well get paid more for it. Any non-hateful suggestions are accepted. I just need someone who isn't going to judge me. I know I have sex problems, and have since I was a child. Please help.

Hi Sadgirl,

I'm just trying to hone in on what you're asking. Are you looking for someone's approval to do porn?
Or are you looking for advice on what jobs to do other than porn to pay the bills?

Please don't. Once you start down that road it's so very difficult to leave it.

Re-reading your post, I'd have to agree with David. If you're already having sex addiction issues, then doing porn is likely to make them worse.

Maybe you could sit down with someone at a temp agency, or a place that works with people with disabilities (because of your back problems) and brainstorm places that would be a better fit. You may find a job is closer than you think. Over the summer I started a volunteer position, but ended up getting hired after two weeks!

I hope you're well. If you need someone with an ear, feel free to hit me up

I agree with David. It might solve your current financial problems but sooner or later you'll realize the extent of damage/anxiety it has caused. Please consider your long term goals. Good luck and hope you'd eventually come up with a decision that's beneficial to you in the long run.

Perhaps you just need a relationship with someone that is equally financially and sexually compatible.

Don't do it. You will regret it later in your life. Guaranteed.