Survivor sexually harassed at hospital during exam

I am a long term survivor of sexual abuse. I went to the ER for an injury I had nothing but a divider for privacy. I acted normal but i was very scared and i just wanted it to be over. well, my fears were justified and it was a nightmare. They performed an examination and the patients next to me made fun of me while I received my examination and after. Imagine being a survivor and having an audience for your colonoscopy who thinks it’s a comedy. Their nurse/doctor didnt stop them and just took it in stride. I felt helpless and i didnt do anything. I covered my face as much as possible when i had to walk by them to go home. I feel so humiliated and disgusting, like I’m not a person with a story, just a thing to laugh at. i acted like everything was fine when it wasnt. Because it’s just funny and i should take the joke, right? I already felt very humiliated and tormented by my sexual abuse and now i know that no matter where i go i will always be laughed at and tormented.

Is it really that funny? I still need to go to the doctor for more potential injuries/infections but I am scared now. Why do people have such insensitive attitudes about one of the most intimate, violating and humiliating injuries a person can have? This was a worst nightmare for any survivor of sexual abuse. I hate hospitals and i never want to go again. I know most ERs are like that with no privacy. I am too deformed to go to a hospital, my genitals are abnormal, my sexuality is abnormal. i am afraid of doctors because my body is wrong.

Your treatment is as bad as anything I have ever heard. Some people have no idea how lucky they have been in life, not having any empathy for you. The "professionals" who stood by and did nothing failed in their duty of care. The system let you down. You maintained your dignity by not reacting to them.

Trauma added to trauma. And for all those people who say "why did you not report it, do something about it, tell someone", they should read what you wrote.

I wish you all the best in continuing to deal with your doctor, and wish you the best, but they really let you down.