New guy 1st post

Well, i truley do not know how to start this off, so i'll post a couple of issues that tie together...

A majority of the time, i feel as if i'm completely worthless, and what my purpose of being here is. This eats at me a lot, and i do not know how to really stop it. It has nothing to do with looks, for i'm told im quite attractive, but it just bites at me inside. i've thought about it, and it hit me that it could link back to when i was a child and i was a victim of incest.

they say that how you feel inside affects how people react to you, and i feel the need to vent out of why i'm just not able to get the attention of ones who i am attracted to. if i do get their attention, it's only physical and lasts for a short time before they get a hint (or vibe) that i'm just not confident enough, or can't hold conversation well enough for them (i have major confidence issues too).

as you can tell, my self esteem is really lacking, and i've read up on all i could on how to bring it up. It works, but it gets easily shattered with minimal to no effort at all.

i thank those who have read what i've started, so far and hope to further assess the rest of my issues.

listen to Rammstein and go to Czech Rep. gothic/vampyric nightclubs...become someone else

dont' sit around reading deadly depressing books__go out and ###$ that bitch of a life...while you're still young and hot

Dear IbLost,

I often feel worthless, too.

And I can relate to all the short, meaningless, shallow "relationships" that don't fulfill, and even tear down my self worth further than it already is. The "right " kind of person never seems to show up. Or if I get maybe a glimpse of him, he doesn't stick around.

I love to read the psychology books that help me understand the "people and relationships' that surround me. If only everyone did the same, and treated each other as well as the books suggest we do.

Therapy helps, some....do you have a professional you can check in with regularly? Especially given the abusive treatment you underwent in your childhood.

I wish I could give you confidence...I wish I could give Me confidence.

Well, anyway, you're Far from alone in your feelings...keep writing!

Good luck to you,

offbeatgrl53

how contemptuous

neitzche wisdom,

"How contemptuous"???


Please explain.

offbeatgrl53