I hate being black

So, let me start off by saying this; I’m a black woman who spends way too much time on the internet. I have OCD- like tendencies, and I obsess over things online that I find distressing. Lately, I’ve been researching ancient African civilizations, trying to figure out if Egypt and Nubia or The Aksumite Kingdom, in Ethiopia, was run and built by black people. There’s just so much information online going against me, like DNA studies showing the Egyptians were more Semitic.

The reason this bothers me so much is because I feel that a lot of people believe black people could never build things like the great pyramids. I see a ton of racist comments online suggesting Africans have a lower IQ, and that we never built anything. In my mind, I wanted to prove them wrong by finding an African civilization that did build something.

But every time I find one, I do more research and find that Arabs or other outsiders had influence on the region.


Like for example, the Mali Empire, which was a West African Kingdom. It turns out most of the famous buildings there were designed by Arab and Spanish architects.

And Ancient Ethiopia: you’d assume that Ethiopians were black, but when researching the mural artwork they left, I saw some depictions of white people.


Now you might be thinking; “so what”? Well to me, it just feels like Europeans, Arabians, Asians, etc. have these amazing tall ancient masterpieces to look back on and feel proud of, whereas I have... nothing. I feel like I come from nothing. It makes me hate being black- I feel like people look down on me because I of my race. I just hate this.

How about music? Where would music be without Black folks? Not just the obvious contributions to American music, but African contributions to Caribbean, South American music. That's nothing to sneeze at, sweetie.

What about Great Zimbabwe?

https://www.victoriafalls-guide.net/great-zimbabwe.html

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