i am so ashamed i need help for self esteem and respect

ashamedineedhelp wrote:I know that's beautiful that's what i wanted i only wished to have only one man in my life that's why i can't forgive myself i ruined my first time and it will follow me all my life, i feel i have no value, nothing to offer to a man anymore it kills me, time doesn't heal me it's been 8 years and i still can't forgive myself and feel i don't deserve a man to love i ruined my life

Trust me, you just need to accept your history and find a man who doesn't judge. Eight years later? You were just a child who made bad decisions! A valuable man will comfort you for that, but you have to be open to allowing a worthy man into your life. There are MANY of those men out there, but you need to look at yourself and ask if you are not allowing a caring man into your life and heart. And, if not, why not? Why not allow a kind, loving, caring man into your heart? Why waste your time obsessing about something that happened so long ago? Forgive yourself, please. Many people have done far worse things and still have found happiness.