Low Self Esteem due to Mental Abuse and Physical Abuse

Well Im a 19 year old black male who lives with Mom and Dad and sister. I have a mom who is way to into herself and my dad is an asshole and his approach is crack skulls and talk $#%^ later. I approached him about his anger issues and he got completely upset and said he was gonna kill me. "If you dont shut up right now and Im gonna go in my room and get my gun and commit a double homicide and have your mom bury you" is what he said tonight. Ive been a social recluse and I dont really connect with my family to much.

I developed my fathers anger and I show distrust to people i know. Is this normal to do this Im perfectly aware of where the problems are coming from and Im realizing why i do things the way I do them. Should I seek help or what?

You should definitely seek help, if for no other reason than you need some support with a potentially homicidal father who cracks skulls. It sounds like your family has had an impact on you, and you know it, but figuring out how to change behaviors you don't like is always easier with some help.

Does your dad get like this often? Do you have a safe place you can go when he gets like this? The problem with loose cannons is that they sometimes go off......

Good luck! Keep posting and let us know how you're doing.

I agree with tiny dance. Abuse definatly lowers self-esteem alot, and can cause alot of problems alone. I think yhou need to talk to someone and seek support.

I dealt with abuse and suffer from very low self-esteem because of it.

I agree as well that you seek help. It must have really developed because of your father's attitude. But don't let this lose you hope. Think of getting over it and not following your father's steps. Set a goal of having a good and happy family, that you won't do to your child what your father has done to you. Be confident not to follow your father's steps.

Be motivated to live your life different from your father. Trust in yourself and stay confident.

Good luck

I think yes if this is affecting you which is obviously is then seeking help would do you alot of good in dealing with the abuse as well as helping to build up your self-esteem again.