Childhood Jokes Ate My Self-Esteem Away

When I was a little girl, my big brother and big sister (I'm the youngest) would always tease me jokingly that my voice is ghost-like and that it's always off-tune. I admit that have/had a low-volume voice and off-tune, I don't know why. My brother and sister have voice that I would say a gift.

I know that they're only joking around and they make sure to tell me that. But, it slowly eating my self-esteem away.

time to time, I never find in me to sing in front of people or even a person and I don't know if it related but, I become quiet-er as time passed. Until now I still have the ghost-like voice.

Recently, I had a long weekend and go to another city, far from mine. Then we (My family) ate in a restaurant that letting their customers to sing with the restaurant's band. At first, my sister & brother sang some songs. then I was convinced - more like forced - to sing in the stage by my mom. I'm glad at that time the restaurant is only my family and a couple other person. so I sung with my sister. when I go down the stage my mom said that my voice is good. I can't help but to think that my mom is lying, that she's only say that to encourage me (That's what mothers do right?).

I don't know. I don't have many friends, in fact I don't have any friend at all. can someone tell me something? anything?

I'm 21 years old, and I don't have any friends either. Never had a girlfriend or a boyfriend, never sang, but would love to. Singing is an art, it's about expressing yourself. Have you ever tried writing song lyrics, or poetry? I do that, and it let's me get my fears, rage, and other emotions out. Also, they said Franco Corelli had somewhat of a quite, ghostly voice when he first started singing. Ever heard of him? He became an ultra famous opera singer. He trained and trained, and became truly one of the most powerful tenors of all time. He's still known as "The Prince of Tenors". Unlike Jussi Bjorling, Luciano Pavarotti, Jessye Norman, and Renata Tebaldi, Franco Corelli didn't come from a musical background. In fact, he had a degree in naval construction. It wasn't until his one friend dared him to enter a singing contest that he begun actually practicing his singing.

Here are a couple arias where he sings beautifully, powerfully, and more dramatic than anyone else has probably ever done.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sE4EgIG0pew

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E_UUS7DqVUQ

Tyler77 wrote:I'm 21 years old, and I don't have any friends either. Never had a girlfriend or a boyfriend, never sang, but would love to. Singing is an art, it's about expressing yourself. Have you ever tried writing song lyrics, or poetry? I do that, and it let's me get my fears, rage, and other emotions out. Also, they said Franco Corelli had somewhat of a quite, ghostly voice when he first started singing. Ever heard of him? He became an ultra famous opera singer. He trained and trained, and became truly one of the most powerful tenors of all time. He's still known as "The Prince of Tenors". Unlike Jussi Bjorling, Luciano Pavarotti, Jessye Norman, and Renata Tebaldi, Franco Corelli didn't come from a musical background. In fact, he had a degree in naval construction. It wasn't until his one friend dared him to enter a singing contest that he begun actually practicing his singing.

Here are a couple arias where he sings beautifully, powerfully, and more dramatic than anyone else has probably ever done.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sE4EgIG0pew

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E_UUS7DqVUQ

Thank you, Tyler77.
I had quite a few poem. I'm a poet.
Your words made me feel better. For now. Words and compliment never stays with me for a long time. It will stay for a second, minute, hour, or day. But not for even a week. My head always have ways to doubt whatever people say, one way or another. Sometimes I just hope I could stop my head from doubting and just take their compliments, but I just can't.
And well, Franco Corelli is great. Can't believe he used to had a ghostly voice and he's not come from a musical background.