*The Magical Thinking Thread*

This forum is way more fun than schizoid, you guys are weird but its fun

I've had problems with thinking that doing certain things was a way of signalling my unconscious consent to the universe to have bad things happen to me. For example, I've been afraid of touching certain colors because they have a tangential association with death; black, green, red, sometimes white.

An interesting one happened today. I was working out some financial math and I became too nervous to include the phrase "unexpected expenses." A hospital bill or funeral would definitely qualify, so I became afraid that if I wrote it down and accounted for that in my calculations, I would be consenting to those things happening in my life. I'm still a little rattled.
I thought it was interesting because this is probably one of the bigger stretches of logic and ideas that I've ever made.
(I'm long past the post edit window and I didn't see any rule against double-posting, please correct me if I'm wrong.)

wheresmyphone wrote:An interesting one happened today. I was working out some financial math and I became too nervous to include the phrase "unexpected expenses." A hospital bill or funeral would definitely qualify, so I became afraid that if I wrote it down and accounted for that in my calculations, I would be consenting to those things happening in my life. I'm still a little rattled.
I thought it was interesting because this is probably one of the bigger stretches of logic and ideas that I've ever made.
(I'm long past the post edit window and I didn't see any rule against double-posting, please correct me if I'm wrong.)

There's no rules for double posting, so long they're quality posts, which both of yours are.

And yeah, this is something I do commonly too. When writing, I'm afraid to write things relating to death, because I think "If I write it, it'll happen to me!" I'm not sure if it's my schizophrenia thinking that or if it's my anxiety thinking that, or both.

I keep getting told that I'm good at reading people and their intentions. I see it as simply listening to ancient primate instincts and animal intuition that almost everybody has. It's other people that try to tell me I have psychic powers or that I'm an empath or whatever.
Sometimes I get a headache trying to figure out if a particular thought or observation is related to this insight (and therefore useful,) or a result of that paranoia, or my long-running issues with pessimism, or simple ignorance, etc.

I used to believe that everything I wrote from my imagination came true. Well it did come true otherwise why would I have believed it?

I also believed I had control over the rain. Like I could hold it up in the clouds with the power of my mind. It was ace when we used to go camping but it took a lot of concentration.

My ex believed that I was doing it too. That's probably even more madder.

I never thought my writing would come true. Though I believed it would undoubtedly be read or known. Which is why I do not journal anymore. It was eating me up. I'd have nightmares weekly. When I made the decision to move, I gathered everything I could find and burned it in the night. For years I'd be occasionally hit with panic since I left some things in my parent's home. They'd tell me they looked through it to look for something. I felt like I was choking, like tears would fall. It was torture. I'll never journal about private things again. Even mundane things bother me sometimes.

I also believe anything bad written about someone will become a curse on me. If I call someone ugly, I'll become ugly. And if I say something bad about someone out loud then they will hear it. My phone will call them and they'll listen to me say something bad.

My phone called my friend on its own, ironically just before I went to take a shower, he still tells the story as being the worst 20 minutes of his life

My phone wont accept/store the "bad numbers" .

It goes mad and starts turning itself on and off randomly until I finally delete the "bad numbers".

This is an interesting thread. I don't think I get this, although I do notice a large number of coincidences, many of which I can't explain which go beyond reasonable coincidence.

Also, I find that if I think a certain way about something, then I'll get evidence of the opposite within the next day or two.