Do I have SPD? And can I get a job with it?

I'm skeptical, but I don't really care if I have SPD -- other than the fact the doctors are wrong, I have a reason not to show back up.

I've been seeking help for about a year, took some tests, and finally been diagnosed with SPD. Reason I kept going is because I'm having problems getting a job -- can't stand to be around people.. and I get paranoid about them also.

Do I have schizoid personality disorder? Or something else? I hear it's pretty rare.

I'm usually homeless, or I spend a lot of time on the computer when I'm not. I have only online friends, I don't talk to my family even though they're really nice people.

I have problems looking at people's eyes... not because I'm afraid of them... because I have a general disinterest in them.

I had 1 girlfriend, in high school, I left the relationship after a week, and have never been with another girl since. Now I'm 23.

I have problems going in to stores, crowded areas, or just being around people. I think they're staring at me, and I get dizzy, heart pounding, sick feeling where I avoid people at all cost.

I will not try to get on disability for personal reasons, I want to get a job, so I have a part 2 of my question -- if I do have SPD, what type of job can I get that will be ideal for this disorder?

I know this was a lot to read, but thanks very much for your time and patience. I hope someone can help me.

Holy crap, i feel just like you.
Have/do you abuse drugs? I *used* to...as of 7days ago.
But yea, the whole paranoia around people thing, I think you'd be good either getting some help with the forming of relationships and so on...Alternatively, you could live like a hermit and try the IT business.

Just out of curiosity, how do you think? Do you have a voice inside your head that is you? Im just really confused about this hearing voices thing (I have one voice which I know is my own, but then when im stressed I hear different voices...probably because of drugs though)

FriedPiper wrote:Holy crap, i feel just like you.
Have/do you abuse drugs? I *used* to...as of 7days ago.
But yea, the whole paranoia around people thing, I think you'd be good either getting some help with the forming of relationships and so on...Alternatively, you could live like a hermit and try the IT business.

Just out of curiosity, how do you think? Do you have a voice inside your head that is you? Im just really confused about this hearing voices thing (I have one voice which I know is my own, but then when im stressed I hear different voices...probably because of drugs though)

What kind of different voices? Sometimes I feel that there are two "Me's" for lack of a better word. When I do something really dumb and impulse(usually has to do with taking drugs) I have a part of me ranting "NO THIS IS A BAD IDEA", but this other part just doesn't give a damn and does it anyways. I also sometimes have little arguments in my head, but I think that's pretty normal.