body awarness

I heard that a common characteristic between schizophrenics and schizotypals is a weird sense of their body?

Anyone has any further info on what it might mean?

I personally don't consider myself schizotpal, but I have been diagnosed with several forms of psychotic disorders as well as schizotypal.

Anyway, I always thought my body-awerness stems mostly from my social anxiety -
When I'm alone I certainly have sponntaneous body movements, but when i'm around people (even family members) all my actions feel severly forced.

How do other people with social anxiety percieve self-awerness? do they percieve it as themselves, except they are simply aware, or do they feel disconnected from their true self?

And what about schizotypals? how do you percieve yourselves when around people?

I usually try and control myself.
I act like Im being watched, and put on a show.

I usually excuse myself from the people Im with, and walk into an empty area to be myself, if you know what I mean.

I have painful sensations in my body that move around, like something inside me is folding in on itself. It usually sits just below my bottom ribs and about 2 inches inside my body. More recently, it's been becoming unbearable sometimes, like there actually something inside me. I know it's emotional though, i've had it for years, and the fact it moves around my body means it's unlikely to have a physical root.

Anyone experience anything similar?

I generally feel physically uncomfortable in situations like that. I become acutely aware of my posture, what I'm looking at, how I'm holding myself, how close someone is to me. I know that no-one really gives a flying _____ in social situations, it's self-perception alone and I have no reason to be particularly aware, but my social anxiety stems from childhood when it was much worse, and the constant tension I experienced in class sitting near people caused me to hold postures like a frightened animal, and gave me neck and stomach knots.

Generally speaking I like to stay away from people physically, outside, avoid crowds, touching, avoid harmful-looking people, and not have to look at them. As such, I perceive my body's physical posture and state when near others, and often, involuntarily, I will look around me to spot dangers or people I wish to avoid.

B2_Spirit wrote:I generally feel physically uncomfortable in situations like that. I become acutely aware of my posture, what I'm looking at, how I'm holding myself, how close someone is to me. I know that no-one really gives a flying _____ in social situations, it's self-perception alone and I have no reason to be particularly aware, but my social anxiety stems from childhood when it was much worse, and the constant tension I experienced in class sitting near people caused me to hold postures like a frightened animal, and gave me neck and stomach knots.

I feel physical discomfort at times, too. It seems I'm either too aware of how close people are to me or oblivious of the distance between myself and another person/other people. People have asked me to move over if I'm too close. Yeah, I've become fixated on how my hands look (even sometimes how others hands look), my body language, and what I'm perceiving. That does make sense to me anyway.

Sometimes I feel more alone when I'm with other people than I am by myself. A lot of the times I am very self-centered and live in a fantasy world I've created for myself, but I'm trying to work on that.