the will to power - nietzsche...

i think the art of falling apart is not to get lost inbetween the fractals.
everything from nothing..
i was studying psychology some time ago, of course i couldnt finish..

what you ask for is what you want, because you are causing it.
wanting, causing and enduring the weird, terrible and crazy and rising out of it into total freedom. it gave sense to my chaos...although i read about nietzsches will to power in the middle of the chaos, but it wouldnt have worked otherwise.

we are all thinking together, arent we? we help each other with thinking, while nobody owns anything in the first place. the sentences are most clear, but i lost control some time ago, they just keep coming. feelings and images come together, when they come.
how i perceive those thoughts outta control..the are resembling sensory echoes.

i wondered a while why my psychiatrist did not understand my perception of reality, while she had to admit, that i understood every single word that she said.. i didnt present it in any way abstracted..

psychotic precision - the Disposition for complex analysis.

the negative symptomes of my schizophrenia totally faded out..yeah i know what that means..
and i found it very nice indeed, that the voice once just said: hallucination..and that was the end of any voices! pretty awesome.

Synaptic Wonderland wrote:the negative symptomes of my schizophrenia totally faded out..yeah i know what that means..
and i found it very nice indeed, that the voice once just said: hallucination..and that was the end of any voices! pretty awesome.

The hallucinations are the positive symptoms, meaning that they add something. Use words like nice, good or pleasant, bad or annoying instead if positve/negative if that's what you mean. Also capitalize so you're easier to read and try reading your post to see if it makes any sense before posting. Anyway just game me the impression you're having thought disorder and not worth putting much effort into understanding unless you put some effort into being easy to understand and read.

I know that...and my only Positive Symptom these days that is adding up as a process is Delusion..

would you allow me to ask just one question, because to me it seems to be that im in the wrong place...
did i get that right?

Hi Synaptic Wonderland, welcome to the forum! Sorry the previous response wasn't the warmest of welcomes. Most here aren't going to nitpick your words and capitalization.

Synaptic Wonderland wrote:would you allow me to ask just one question, because to me it seems to be that im in the wrong place...
did i get that right?

You deleted your original post, so I don't know what you wrote but I think this is a fine forum for you to be, especially given we don't have a philosophy forum! So, pls, keep posting! We need more activity here Also, I'm glad some of your symptoms are gone now.

Take care,
Jan

thx for the welcome! i hope i can somehow encourage people with what post.

Hey Synaptic,

Welcome to the forum! That paper by Nietzsche sounds very interesting. Do you remember what it was called?

Could you explain a little bit about "sensory echoes"? I'm interested to know what that's like.

Take care, I hope you find the support you need here.

Thx again!
It apeared first in "Thus spoke Zarathustra", but theres a whole collection and a lot was written down on note pads. Regarding those sensory echoes, i dont think im really able to explain.