or if not is there something wrong with me or out of the ordinary that can potentially get worse?
to start when i was a lot younger like 5ish-10 i would see $#%^ (ex: bloody black kid staring at me in sub way station and a ton of other things) also i would sometimes hear things but i diddnt questio this thien becasue at the time i diddnt think it was out of the ordinary. the voices would be over lapped and would sound like they were saying the same word repeated overandoverandoverandover. The one i remember the most was when i was laying in my dads bed and i constantly heard 'shutupshutpshutup'' and so on.
i started to think about this again because awhile ago i was laying in bed and started to think i was going to die..keep in mind i had no reason to think this but i was completely convinced.. i thought i maby had anything form a medical disorder that would kill me to getting hit or killed by someone within the next week. i started to cry and went to my dads room to take me to the hosptial to find out what (if anything) was wrong with my body and going to kill me.
other times i start getting afraid of things that arnt reasonably possible.. yesterday i thought there was some alien force taking people in my life away from me. (my reasoning was my dad was in china and lost his phone and my best friend stopped taking to me out of the blue for a week) then my perspective of my house and hall way changed and i started fighting to believe that it was a replica of my real house. i was honest to god afraid of going into my room because i thought it wasn't my room just a copy and they wanted me to believe it was m room. i started to see everything in extreme detail and when i finally got to my room on the computer the images i saw (like landscape pictures) became flat and i was seeing faces in everything and lines were connecting in ways i diddnt usually see but were always there.
can someone please help with anything i dont even know anymore.. any information would be appreciated