voices of friends/family

two days ago I was sick and so I managed to puke up my meds, since then I've heard my partners voices telling me he is angry,
he can have his back to me in the room and he will just say, I'm really pissed off, or I'm angry, and then I ask him why and then he turns around and he swears he never said anything. This has happened maybe 20 times in the past day. I also heard my boss talking about me in a negative way, but I know that it couldn't have been real because I was at home and she was at work so there is no way i should be able to hear her talk about me,

I still feel really worried that everyone hates me, and that my boss wants to sack me, and I have to go to work in an hour, ,I feel so nervous about going in but I was off sick yesterday and I don't want to take another day off because of this.

Jools

Has it gotten any better yet? How are you feeling now?

Hey w4rp thankyou for responding

I'm not doing good at all, I feel like everyone I know hates me. Yesterday at work I asked my boss if she had been talking about me behind my back, and she was offended and said that she hadn't but I could hear her and another work colleague talking about me it was so real.

I want to hide away, i don't want to see anyone, not even my partner but I just have to go to work I am so afraid of losing my job because financially that would ruin me. I have people relying on me for money its so much pressure. Last night I almost ran away, just didn't want to come home from work. I was going to use what little money I do have to get a train somewhere far away. My partner talked me round and so i came home.

I still think he hates me, and i know hes angry with me I just don't know why he keeps telling me he is angry then denying it, i feel like he is messing with my head but hes not usually like this, usually hes really sweet and caring and nice. I need to keep reminding myself that hes a nice guy.

I don't know how I'm going to get throgh the day at work
I only missed one dose of my meds and that was 2 days ago why is this still happening.

sorry to ramble im just feeling desperate
Jools

It sounds like you're symptoms are flairing up and you need your meds looked at. Maybe they can adjust some some so that you can feel a little safer. Hang in there hunny. I get the same exact feelings about everyone hating me and my partner being mad at me. I know how hard it is to go to work. I actually quit my job and had to move in with my boyfriend's mom because of it. I couldn't handle it any more.

Have you told your partner what you're experiencing, especially with him? It might be helpful if he understood what is going on.