Do YOU have a full time job?

Well I wanted to get a phd in philosophy and become a teacher after being into computers since 1999. All during highschool I wanted to study computer science. The first week of college I dropped out cause I had no motivation, and the class seemed too easy. I finished all my basic programs (10) in class when we had a week to do them. Then I helped someone else start theirs. Its not that I was a good programmer, but more that I didn't want to take the long road from scratch and I didn't feel like I had the logical capability to become a good programmer. I was further into visual basic than visual c++, and that was a problem. I had a turbo C compiler like in junior high, but I would always leave it for later on. So then I was lost for a while untill I picked a major again, this time philosophy. I was reading literature then philosophy since highschool. Now I don't know if I want to do philosophy because it helped my isolation from the world as reading these sorts of things helped me wonder what was wrong with the world. I also have become more and more aspergian, and less intimate. My friends call me theoretical, and it is hard to make small talk in person. Instead I just talk about ideas. So now I am thinking about becoming a musician because my illness has made me wonder if I could put up with a regular job. The only thing im worried about with music is that there is a lot of drugs involved on the scene, people smoking pot and so forth, so I would have to be strong to not cave in to those sorts of temptations. Currently since about november, I have had too much ambilavalence of practicing. And my social skills are still shakey so its hard finding people to play with.

visualizations wrote:Well I wanted to get a phd in philosophy and become a teacher after being into computers since 1999. All during highschool I wanted to study computer science. The first week of college I dropped out cause I had no motivation, and the class seemed too easy. I finished all my basic programs (10) in class when we had a week to do them. Then I helped someone else start theirs. Its not that I was a good programmer, but more that I didn't want to take the long road from scratch and I didn't feel like I had the logical capability to become a good programmer. I was further into visual basic than visual c++, and that was a problem. I had a turbo C compiler like in junior high, but I would always leave it for later on. So then I was lost for a while untill I picked a major again, this time philosophy. I was reading literature then philosophy since highschool. Now I don't know if I want to do philosophy because it helped my isolation from the world as reading these sorts of things helped me wonder what was wrong with the world. I also have become more and more aspergian, and less intimate. My friends call me theoretical, and it is hard to make small talk in person. Instead I just talk about ideas. So now I am thinking about becoming a musician because my illness has made me wonder if I could put up with a regular job. The only thing im worried about with music is that there is a lot of drugs involved on the scene, people smoking pot and so forth, so I would have to be strong to not cave in to those sorts of temptations. Currently since about november, I have had too much ambilavalence of practicing. And my social skills are still shakey so its hard finding people to play with.

I had above average brains, maybe not as much as you, but moreso I was athletic so I chose career paths that were orientated in competing against others physically... which I enjoyed. My best achievment was when I was 14 beating every1 in my form and the form above me in a running race held in my hometown. I got my photo in the paper shaking prince edwards hand which was quite a buzz for me. However I never got serious or trained and when I was old enough turned a lot to the bottle. Work hard play hard... that was my approach to life.