i think i used to be schizophrenic or still am..idk

im 15. when i was younger (around 7-11ish) i used to think everyone could read my mind. also i saw something on tv about someone selling their soul and it would come into my mind constantly and i would start to say something in my head about selling my soul to satan and i thought if i said it i would go to hell. i would start to say it and stop myself all the time, thousands of times. i sang in my head to drown it out. one time i had to go to the hospital from the anxiety and they asked what was wrong and i didnt know what to say. i really never told anyone except one time i finally told my mom (she didnt realize it was going on for years but thought probably a day or two). she told me it was rediculous, and now i feel the same way. also, wen i started to fall asleep at night, i imagined a pit going to hell and me standing next to it. i thought if i fell in it in my mind then i would go to hell. i would start to go into it and stop myself. sometimes i got the idea into my head that if i did something or didnt do somthing than either i would go to hell or somthing bad would happen. sometimes i thought that satan could hear/see my thoughts. sometimes i would go a long time even a year without problems and sometimes it just wouldnt stop.

now i dont have any of those problems, but there is one other thing. i often imagine that im talking to someone else/explaining something. by often i mean almost constantly. its not a problem, it actually keeps me amused. ive never been to a psychiatrist and no one really knows about these things. im not sure if i was/am schizophrenic or what. what should i do?

satan CAN read your thoughts. lots of people have worries about hell. i used to think at that age that my dad could read my mind.

about the other stuff, i don't know, i've never been to a psychiatrist either, or to a hospital, just a psychologist. i'm sure it would be good to talk about it, but it doesn't look like you're in trouble at the moment.

bret,

Why don't you try realising that no one can read your mind. It's the truth and you know it!

If you wish to pretend people can read your mind and it amuses you, enjoy it.

yeah i dont think im schizophrenic now that ive read all the symptoms. i just gota little worried wen i heard the mind reading thing can be a warning sign or w.e. i think i just have a really weird imagination or something. ive never had hallucinations or voices etc.

bret wrote:yeah i dont think im schizophrenic now that ive read all the symptoms. i just gota little worried wen i heard the mind reading thing can be a warning sign or w.e. i think i just have a really weird imagination or something. ive never had hallucinations or voices etc.