During Acute episode and after concerning delusional thinkin

Have a question:

My episode was a web of delusional thinking thousand of thoughts and ideas about things that were not rational or logical, however; at the time they seemed very plausible to the point of being absolutely true and affecting my action based on my beliefs.

After I got on the meds it was like a light switch, all the delusional thinking and strange beliefs went away in an instant once the medication took hold.

Is this a normal / typical response to the meds or do some people after an episode, still hold on to some of those delusional beliefs?

When I look back on what I thought was the truth it embarrasses me that I was so distant / off my rocker.

No... my "delusional beliefs" as the you put it have not disappeared after being medicated. Sure it's a different way of looking at things but even under that spell I still had the ability to add up A+B=C. My "fears" were quickly immersed in real life happenings soon after(usually death) and revolved around radio stations manipulation on societies enforcing sudden changes to the environment which many could not withstand... ending up murdered, killing themselves or killing others all connected in some way(as schizophrenics are sure to notice) in some way to me. Much like new age abortions. These systems such as radio stations who are obsessed on their missions cannot vere out of the way if a baby is in the way or swerve in another direction they just go like a freight train and bowl over whatever gets in the way so they can be the one. And they laugh and they enjoy it like noobs.

Well ever since Bush and his hunting of terrorists is it any surprise that you will get copycat killers. It was all the rage. Hunt hunt hunt kill kill kill so those in power can have their superior world's rule. Maybe it is a better world but why abort your own children to have it? I'm just glad I wasn't a willing part of it.

What the medication has done for me is not change my belief system but made my thoughts not race so much, sedate me to the point where I cannot function in society and make me not care about people as I once did. Although the mental health system has forced me to be usless I do get occassional moments where all is calm and peaceful and nothing worries me anymore but the cost far outweights any benefits that they enforce.

yeah, meds helps me with delusional thinking up to a point. The first time I got medicated it was kind of scary. I was so deluded and into my own nightmare fairytale that it was awful and so embarassing to see how messed up I had been before.

Sure... I still think about my delusions. Each schizophrenic is unique and seems to have his own delusional drama. For me the delusions were so real at the time that not even medication can really convince me that it was all just bs. There are things that still don't sit with me... why did this happen? Was it just a coincidence? How can it just be a coincidence if etc, etc, etc.

I mean... I saw what I saw. Nobody is going to tell me that what really happened didn't happen.

See?

The best thing I can do is just not think about it. It's that or go crazy again.

So meds help with calming down like Rattatat said. But as for completely getting rid of my "delusions"... I don't think that's going to happpen. "A man sees what he sees."

I went into hospital in 2009, with my deluded world around me, and was given antipsychotics, and i think i had a similar thing to you, I mean, from what i can recall, when i was ill, there was a large coach or lorry parked in some place about 150 metres that i could see from my hospital window, and i thought it was the CIA undercover all sat in there, in the coach, watching me, the kind of ground team, it just LOOKED totally like that when i wasnt well, but all of a sudden (after the meds kicked in, maybe a week and a half or 2 weeks, ) i remember looking at that same coach and thinkin wow, it just looks like a normal coach now? not CIA , so it was a real noticeable alieviation of delusions. I came off the meds in january just gone, so i've been 3 months without them. Whilst i was on them I lost my love of music, which bothered me alot because i play piano. That has now come back, not sure if it is as strong as it used to be but its good to have it back now again.

I only googled and found this forum post because tonight i got concerned a bit because, the kind of delusional beliefs all started affecting me again kind of like for short periods earlier tonight, I noticed a big change 2 nights ago when watching TV it felt like the central part of my brain looking from its glassy interior to things in the room (i was watching Britain's got talent) and all of a sudden that central area got flooded by what i think is the delusional constructs that i had pushed right to the back of my mind. What i noticed as that area of my brain got flooded with a way of looking at things that makes colors more vibrant and i had again a sudden fixation of interest on the background lights on the stage set of Britain's got talent. (salience in psychology) and the immidiate delusion is that those lights are all controlled by people controlling crap, like blah blah blah could be any government, could be the aliens, but yeah, and i knew this, and i'm still able to rationalize so i'm not unwell right now. it annoyed me though that i was able to see things like that again, i think its the messed up perception of information that leads you to form delusions. An article i read just recently, it talks about salience, and the writers theory was that the delusional beliefs dont go away, they are just shoved so far to the back of the concious mind that they are almost irrelevant however they are nevertheless still there. But as for my symptoms re-emerging I find that thinking it through carefuly helps, then i go google something about it. My Logic tends to tell me the brief deluded thought can't possibly be true. Also i'm tired and I think after sleep tonight i'll be better in the morning.

But answering your question, for me, the meds have had a major lightswitch action, in the past before i was ever introduced to meds, i had 8 years with psychosis every 2 years roughly, and i can say at some points during that i think i was totally delusion free, but i have been able to see strange things that others couldn't, and i thought it was a unique ability, but since the lightswitch experience i know now that it was all part of the mental illness.