does an episode return?

my background is this... ive smoked marijuana for say a good 5 yr. not smoked 4 months prior to incedent. at same time im against going out and meeting new people. i like to be home and do my own thing. i prefer spending all my time with a girlfriend rather than others i call friends. my employer quit their business and im on unemployment money. i stopped school junior year to follow my business venture dream. its a lot of work that i love doing. in an average week i work say 60 hours from home. i dont talk to anyone, a lot of research right now. i broke up with my gf say 5 months ago. i work everyday, a lot of stress, anxiety, i do the trash, clean, lonely, but im happy, don't really feel depressed.

now for the event.

3 months ago i had a problem with a neighbore. i called the cops maybe 6 times over 3 weeks because I feel i was being harassed by a male that moved into a unit where only 2 female are to be occuping that unit in our building. at same time, my bike was stolen in the apartment building right after i called cops the first time. the male and a female were harassing me verbally on the padio i feel. also, i keep my window cracked open. i couldnt imagine what male would stay in the unit, get cops called x times, and continue harass me. i figured he had to be some drug dealer on the run.

i thought up a whole thing where this guy wanted to kill me. for 13 hours 1 night i could hear the same male voice and 1 the female voice on deciding if i should b killed. my heart was racing, ot of nowhere a voice said my heart is popiltating. i didnt/dont even know the word. i had to crawl and get a glass o water. i voice too said take sips. next i called the cops again. was bakeract.

got out after 2 wk.

i wanted to make a lawsuit at this person. at same time, i had impure thoughts at male. i was super anxiety/stress. a voice from the unit came at me. talking about wanting to hurt me. took hours but i finally broke down and listen to the voice. told me it kill me if didnt. i went through a whole thing with the voice. stop, go, next on topics. it literally tore my mind apart. the voice wanted to see what was inside my heart. it said i live because im a "good kid." the voice lasted say 5 days, and ONLY where i live, not when out. the male/voice is totally gone. the girl does not out back anymore.

also, i was afraid the male could make a suit @ me for impure thoughts i was thought. in my mind, i fought through a whole lawsuit, and won. any voices i had vanished. nothing. no sound

somewhere at this point when i was blocking out negative thoughts and i got this pop sound in head. followed by sharp jabbing pain everytime i tried to think. i never got headaches in my life. it was really scary. i got mri w/ contrast and everything is "good."

looking back at it all, i feel like what happened didn't, yet some things did. like, im pretty sure psywar is real and was used on me for reason all related to problem with neighbore.

at same time, i did not talk to anyone. i dont got friends. split with my gf. i know if i had a support group, even simply gf, i could got a grasp on the real scoop. i can see living home and working home is not healthy. i need to do more. and more social interact.

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in the process when i was bakeract i was diagnosed sciphrenia. maybe i did hear voices, maybe a police psy team did want to scare me. either way, it was an episode i feel could o been avoided if i had more social interaction in my life.

i was told to take anti depress... but it blocked all my thoughts, no thinking, and i couldnt ejackulate.i tried another 1 that worked less harsh, but a nono in my book.

i not took any meds for a month and i feel fine, just worried i now have the mental illness scitzophrenia. i had 1 episode. i never had any thoughts prior to my problem with neighbore.

i dont understand the illness. so now what, i had this happen and now at some point soon ima start hearing voices and seeing things? at same time if means anything, when i do something cool, make a design, do soomething creative, i state to myself, phrases like "damn he rocks, the man is here, ect" is that bad? to talk in the third person about yourself?

like, i dont feel i need anti depress drugs. i know what i now need to do it will do it. no drinking. no smoke. get social in society.
i do think my seratonin is low. i now get little headaches that are little pulsating in a certain area.

like, what happens. what if the law never got involved, or never problem with neighbore. how likely can happen again if im a member now in society, you know?

do people with what i describe lead "normal" lives, or does my brain simply deteriate now. im scared about the topic.

I think the 5 year history smoking marijuana disqualifies you for schizophrenia but drug-induced psychosis isn't much better. They did hang a big ass stigma on you with that diagnosis that ain't going away. Schizophrenia is legally considered a serious mental illness.

You obviously were under a lot of stress and totally isolated before the psychotic break. That's a no-no. You just found out what happens when you push yourself too far. You have just found out reality is subjective and you'll need to be more careful. Learn to take it easy-- surround yourself with good people and you won't have to watch your own back.

like, i dont feel i need anti depress drugs. i know what i now need to do it will do it. no drinking. no smoke. get social in society.

That sounds like a better prescription than Paxil (just guessing from the headaches and the other problem). Kind of weird you got out with only an antidepressant?

buddha,

looking at my situation from your perspective it is more clearer. yes, mayhem was going on for something like 3 weeks to a month right up to break.

i saw the md pa. i told him my concerns and he could not confirm nor deny i got scitzophrenia. he simply stated he only made a hypothesis. where i got too much dopamine. i told him my plan with putting myself more into society, i think he was lost for words, told him im not depressed yadda yadda. also said i not took med for a month and im fine. in the end he had no ground for me to go on anti d. he simply wrote off i take no meds. also, said for me to go take test w/psyco therapist and see what i have.

at this point, i feel it is more time waste thinking about. asked both parents if scitz runs in the families. they said no.

how does marijuana disqualify me for scitzophrenia?

yeah, just anti d.

if i were to ask, i bet anyone would say psychosis can come 1 time to many times depending all the circumstances. other than that, does 1 episode psychosis have deteriorating factor like scitzophrenia?

Childhood onset is the form of schizophrenia that usually deteriorates. My onset was even early than that. If you do what you said and don't push yourself to the breaking point again-- I doubt you'll have too much trouble. About 2/3 recover to some extent despite the meds here in the US. Finland they have a 90% success rate for first time psychosis like yours-- they hardly use drugs, only for the violent ones.

how does marijuana disqualify me for schizophrenia?

There's a substance exclusion clause (E), while you were not on it at the time, marijuana is know to make people more susceptible to psychosis. Would screw up the research if people know to use marijuana were diagnosed with schizophrenia ... lol ... yeah happens all the time though.