Help I'm a loser

I feel like a total loser. I'm sz, have a serious speech problem, and no one likes me.

I wished I could end everything and become normal again.

Feel like sharing more? I'm sorry you are feeling so down and out right now. I don't deal w/ sz, but I deal w/ things in my own right and believe me...I've been where you are. Feeling like it just might be easier to end it all. But I've also been through enough to know it's just not the answer for me. Talk w/ us...share....let us try and be support to you. I assure you, you are not alone.

I'm such a loser. I even failed at suicide. I took 70 sleeping pills and I wake up three days later in the hospital. Then I get sent to a mental hospital where I was watched day and night. I could even go pee with out being watched.

Then they find out I'm sz. Then come the meds to fill my brain, seroquel geodom, trazodone, lamictal, and imipramine. My brian is so full of chemicals.

I go back to school and they stick me in special ed. Its a place to park our butts so the teachers and parents get a breakl. With special ed come the name calling and getting picked on.

So I witched to a treatment program for the mentally ill. I fit in there and its the best I can do. We have tutors for school.

I'm always getting in trouble for something so I'm always on restriction for something.

I'm just a loser. I'm like a like a rock, I sit around and people walk on me.

School can be a drag when other kids don't respect you and teachers are on your case half the time but believe me, it's all temporary. Once you leave school people are less inclined to tell you what to do all the time.

A lot of successful people were considered dim when they went to school. Einstein dropped out of school after a teacher told him he'd never amount to anything. One kid used to be told by his teacher all the time that he had an attitude problem. That kid later on started his own line of t-shirts with the logo "Attitude". He is now the CEO of a successful, booming business. Joss Wheedon, the creator of the Buffy and Angel TV series hated high school but the fans of his TV series love him and he leads a very productive life.

I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia, but I don't think I'm a loser.

G. Gabriel

I have gotten used to being a loser. I can tune out name calling most the time.

I feel so all a lone. I hate it and I hate the life I'm living.

i feel the same way a lot, just find something your good at, or you dont even have to be good at it, find something you enjoy doing it and it helps you not think about everything

I took up art. I bought all the casin paint colors, airbrush, paper to draw on, brushes, and other stuff. My first painting was an uban landscape in the city. I made up the city. I'm not that good yet but I was offered $1,600 for it. I didn't sell it.

I figure being an artist would be something I can do when i grow up.

TheWizard wrote:I have gotten used to being a loser. I can tune out name calling most the time.

I feel so all a lone. I hate it and I hate the life I'm living.

hi thewizard,

i dont think you should ever have to get use to being a "loser" i hate that phrase anyways. It only described how other ignorant, close-minded, immature kids see you.

When i was younger (im 18 now) i use to think i was a "loser" this was before i knew i had schizophrenia, but of coarse, i've always been "weird" and i use to be afraid of that. I wanted to fit in and to be like the other "cool" kids at school.

But, over time...i slowly got over my insecurities and started to appreiciate my difference and "weirdness" it was very hard, and im not really even sure how i've done it, but i know longer care what other people think of me.

It seems everyone in the worlds (especially teenagers) are always trying to fit in and be like other people. I get sick of it. Not many people seem to care to be different and individual.
I guess i've become almost phobic of being "normal" and being like other people.
..i think i use schizophrenia as a way of coping with the world that i hate so much.

i hope things get better for you someday. im sorry you feel so aweful.

In my opinion, the real "Losers" are the people who cant open their minds and be compashionate of what other people (like us) are going through. And instead, they choose to make fun of us and make us feel even more sh*ty.

-becka

I know what you mean. Its not pretty but I have to learn to cope better cause it gets me down so much.

Hey Hun,
First of all (bet you knew I was gonna say this) You are NOT a loser! Having a speach problem amd schizophrenia doesn't make you a loser. The losers are those who don't like you just because you have schizophrenia and a speach problem. Lot's of great leaders and wonderful people have had speach problems, and I'm sure many of them have had schizophrenia. So don't beat yourself up. You aren't a loser. I feel like a loser most of the time too. I have hardly any friends, and I don't really fit in anywhere. But I think we both know that neither of us are losers. I'm sorry that you feel like no one likes you!! **big hug** If you need to talk, I'm here for you.

~element