Could this be schizophrenia???

Hi

I'm in late 20s. A few months ago I had an extreme 2-day psychotic episode for the first time in my life. During the episode I had delusions and did some stupid things. Consequently I landed immediately in the hospital. It was the typical persecutory episode, i.e. they were all to get me, I was being poisoned, hearing voices, some religious delusions and song texts and films referring to me, there were cameras everywhere, people were taping what I was saying and so on. I got the meds (zypr.) for a month time. I was told it might have been only a one-time occurrence caused by immense stress (which was in fact the case).
Now I'm OK but have the fear that it may come back. I'm very worried because that episode was really very scary in nature.
The worst thing is that now being aware of what happened, I think I might have had some milder episodes earlier (for example being stalked, colleagues gossiping about me) that were very realistic. Unfortunately I even remember the face of a man who stalked me and it scares me that this might have been only a kind of hallucination.
I get this terrible feeling that I can't trust myself after all of this...
Could this be the beginning of schizophrenia?

are you crazy is that the question. crazy people have visions, not because they are crazy, they have visions because there are visions to be seen.

My sz began when I was fifteen, I saw my ceiling open up and there was a galaxy.

Like your experience, when I have a panic episode, I personalize everthing. I think the world is against me, I feel I am being watched, I'll think the radio is talking directly to me.

However, my mom has had a sz episode once in 2001 and has not had one since. When I am not delusional, I will sometimes have "social phobic" elements for a little while.

If I were you, I would just take care of yourself, make sure you get lots of rest... stay away from recreational drugs. Also, hang around positive people and build yourself to not feel 'inferior' around others who you "think" are gossiping about you.

Good Luck!

I had a very similar experience and I am now on risperidone. My psychiatrist prefers to err on the side of caution. In other words, she said I should stay on medication permanently. This gives me a sense of security that it will not happen again, because the medication should prevent it.

G. Gabriel

despaired wrote:Hi

I'm in late 20s. A few months ago I had an extreme 2-day psychotic episode for the first time in my life. During the episode I had delusions and did some stupid things. Consequently I landed immediately in the hospital. It was the typical persecutory episode, i.e. they were all to get me, I was being poisoned, hearing voices, some religious delusions and song texts and films referring to me, there were cameras everywhere, people were taping what I was saying and so on. I got the meds (zypr.) for a month time. I was told it might have been only a one-time occurrence caused by immense stress (which was in fact the case).
Now I'm OK but have the fear that it may come back. I'm very worried because that episode was really very scary in nature.
The worst thing is that now being aware of what happened, I think I might have had some milder episodes earlier (for example being stalked, colleagues gossiping about me) that were very realistic. Unfortunately I even remember the face of a man who stalked me and it scares me that this might have been only a kind of hallucination.
I get this terrible feeling that I can't trust myself after all of this...
Could this be the beginning of schizophrenia?

I also crumbled under stress this year. I have just starting going back to school for months. They nearly hospitalised me because of a suicide attempt in some bizarre mood swing. Clinically I have been diagnosed with psychosis. I am on Risperidone now, which seems to work really well.

If it is just a one off - maybe you can nip it in the bud - Someone really good advised me “just enjoy your life” at a stage when I was young and had just recently come through a psychotic episode - I do believe you can nip this thing in the bud - But you do need some help - meds for a while / enjoy yourself / affirmations : “I am worthy of love - say this every day. I didn’t pay attention to the person and I wish I had - I went through a lot of problems since then as a result which CAN be avoided - Just enjoy your life that’s my advice.

Wow... Your story is identical to mine. I was hardly persecutory other than some beliefs that there were people searching for "someone like me" in a grandios way. The delusional state of mind, the minor hallucinations etc all apparent. The references to texts and past. This haunts me even a year later just as it does you though two months later. I was diagnosed with bipolar officially with psychotic symptoms. It sounds like your case may have been less severe, I wouldn't worry too much about it but if it affects you gravely please talk with your doctor. Thank you for sharing your story it helped me so much knowing someone felt the way I did about an episode and the way you think of past events in your life because of it!