It feels like everyone knows me personally!?

Hi im a 30 year old male and ive been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia for several years now but meds just dont work with me.
My illness really effects what i can do and puts great stress on me in the most casual of circumstances like when going shopping.The main sympton is thinking that everyone knows me and I cant shake it its doing my nut in.I know its not real but even when I think of people I think they know im thinking about them and its like hey dude calm down.Even watching tellys insane its like a feel everyone knows me and sometimes I get fooled its like a two way mirror its like hey dude you cant know them wheres ya birthday cards.Listening to music also has the same symptom I believe they in the moment are playing there songs directly too me the way they meant to be played.I used to believe I was the main focus of attention in this before seeing a therapist who explained,but I cant get rid of the paranoia.It also affected my sexual orientation! you see I became paranoid thinking everyone thought I was homosexual nothing wrong with that but it was a delusion put on me by cannibass.It wasnt until later my true feelings have came forth and I realized that not everybody knew me,after this time went by and the paranoia of knowing everyone went down and so did the awareness of knowing that peolple knew me as been gay when I havent even met them thats my paraiod schizopherenia.As so I did get my head around that it wasnt me been homosexual but the believe of thinking that everbody know me as been homosexual as i did get paranoid about the feelings i had.Anyway im just wanting too know if anybody else feels like the centre of attention so much that it feels like you cant be yourself when all you want do too is chill.Because thats the problem if you lose yourself like I do mostly everyday you feel like your evryone else but yourself.

sometimes I feel that way to a lesser extent because I have hearing motion synesthesia (my neurons are wired in a way so that I've been able to hear motion my whole life). I'm also very right brained and very emotional so sometimes depending on my mood other peoples voices and motions can "get in my head" and have serious effects on my personality making me very inconsistant as i may start to copy the patterns of behavior of those around me even though it is completely unintentional and unwanted.
I too can feel really paranoid and freaked out in simple social situations because i over estimate the effects i have on other people ( seeing as they can have very large effects on me), and I find myself longing to just find my way out of this jungle mess of a brain and let go and be who i really am. i'm working on it but thus far the social phobia persists.
I know that my situation is very different from yours but I feel like i can sort of understand. It's like you're very scatter brained (like me) and your brain just sort of latches on to any possibilty it thinks of and imagines it as real, and my thoughts can be like that too except to a lesser extent.
I honestly am not sure what you should do. I would normally, just speaking from my own experiences, recommend re-reading a favorite fantasy book you had as a child and sort of live your lifein this world but when you start to feel lost you can imagine your self as a main character in that happier one and be less concerned and focused on . . .and evenscared of the present reality of your situation. However, considering you world as it being a comparison to that one- life general seems more pleasent and easier to handle that way. But considering the lack of control you have over your thoughts and the extent to which they appear real in your mind I'm not sure this is the best advice. I would recommend seeking proffesional advice- maybe there is a medication that can help you? Although idk what kind of medication that would be. If you have any family or friends you trust- I would recommend you see them first whenever life seems too overwhelming for you.

A shorter and more straight forward possible solution could be next time you get to feeling like everyone knows you personally, you counsciously make a point to remember the people that you DO know intimately and how that stranger standing next to you DOES NOT know you like that, nor you know him.

sorry to hear you too suffer from phobias and paranoia aswell.Ive tried meds but nowt works and C.B.T IS exhausting.Will try a book though cheers.

Stop using cannabis, that's a part of the problem. Maybe you need to be hospitalized for a little while, too. I was exactly the same way after 12 years of smoking weed, I used to think Everyone in the whole country was watching me on some reality TV show like I was some special case or something...I quit smoking weed and 3 or 4 months later the problems cleared up and I saw that I just wasn't that interesting to other people and that I was not the center of attention.

Ive been off drugs for six years and my thoughts still have not cleared going to see if i can try a new medication nothings worked even my body rejects chrolzipine.Im currently on epilum chrono to keep my mood level cuz i always get winded up by peoples facial expressions either because i feel there just plain ignoring me and disrepecting me or just trying to demeen my self esteem