what shape do your delutions take

what delutions do you have
i.e you are being hunted by the cia or the government is watching you?

My phone is tapped, my neighbors watch me, I was abducted by aliens and they put something into my head, God told me he was going to kill my mother and then me by a brain aneurysm, I believe half the people I talk to aren't really there, I was a test subject for the government. I think EVERYONE is trying to steal from me. I could go on and on.... I once thought my mother was trying to kill me. I actually think now she's trying to kill my dad.

the government is recording my every movement my neighbours are spying on me DO NOT TRUST ANYONE !!

i think i was a test subject or experimnt and now people in white vans are watching me, monitering me.
i also have dreams of places then in real lifeill go to place ive never been but it seems like i have been there before, like maybe ive been given faulse memories too because i say to my mum remember when i was young eg happened and she says no it didnt.

bloodred1889 wrote:'Dont point your f***ing finger at crazy people!'

I suggest you defuse some of this aggression--it might help you feel calmer. It has worked for me.

Demons watch me, follow me. They send me thoughts into my head of terrible things. Sometimes they send me messages through other people they have possesed. They are curious of me the half man/ half demon and they don't understand why I can resist them as well as I can. So they study me.

I believed that my body was decomposing above ground and that people were going to cremate me. I thought nasa was coming to get me and sent russian spys to put my rotting body in a capsule and send it into orbit. I thought bugs were in my hair so I pulled my hair out. I felt people following me and talking about me. God this $#%^ is crazy .

I would trade my delusions for any of yours anyday. I have the feeling of being trapped in eternity, stripping me of all hope. I feel there is no way out, even death is not an option because I feel that when you die, you are reincarnated into yourself again and you repeat your life exactly the same way for eternity. I've watched movies like Groundhog Day and can relate to that exactly. Bill Murray tries to kill himself, but he just wakes up the next day as if nothing had happened.

I also feel that everyone in the world is really one entity and I feel like I am apart of GOD. I am paranoid that I will get more delusions from TV and movies, so i try to steer clear of frightening movies or TV shows.

I used to think I was on a TV show and everyone was watching me, kind of like out of the truman show. Actually I only started having those thoughts after watching the truman show. Curse that movie.

I always feel like I'm the centre of attention, and I dont want to be. I feel like people are always judging my movements, my speech and content and always feel like I have to act to fit in. It's so hard to be myself, yet I don't realise that this is just me.

I also feel like I'm constantly being judged for everything I do, too; but even when I'm alone, though.

I believe that I have already died, and that I can only be seen by a few people (i.e, my family). That's why it's so easy for me to feel like my thoughts are being controlled by 'evil spirits.' There's also the feeling that there's a nasty clown that tries to kill me and my puppy every night. He's disturbed my sleeping very badly. If I close my eyes, or keep anything close to the edge of the bed, that's when he's going to get us (as childish as that sounds). My old Winnie the Pooh doll is really a spy for someone somewhere that is also tracking everything I type and is watching me through my web cam, even if it's off, and tucked away in the drawer.

I realise now that we all experience some delusions to some extent. Maybe the rest of the world is delusional as not seeing the truth a lot of people with mental illness see. But the difference between someone with schizophrenia is that the delusions are terrifying and produce such an emotional response and emotional pain. The magnitude of this pain is indescribable but I'm sure it's near peak. I feel for all of you experiencing delusions. And I'm sure now that my delusions are probably nothing compared to some of you out there. Those who feel they have already died. What could be worse than that? But there is worse. Unimaginable.