Not sure what I might have, need opinions :/

I've been struggling and dealing with psychosis well apparently diagnosed by my psychiatrist (major depression and psychotic features) for so long, it's affected my social life and my grades, I'm a senior in high school, I used to be an intelligent girl and student butI've forgotten so much of what I've learned.. my cognitive thoughts and memories are even hazy.I guess that has to do with depression as well which I've had since 7th grade because of former friends who abandoned me and talked about me behind my back. I'm on 50 mg of seroquel and 20 mg of prozac, but that still isn't entirely helping. the same delusion keeps on coming back....and I always get so scared and paranoid thinking about it. My body temperature even starts dropping and I get goosebumps on my skin, my head feels heavy, my feet and arms sometimes fall asleep.... like it has a huge weight on me, and sometimes my head even starts pounding when I ponder about these delusions. I'm just wondering what the hell is wrong with me lol what condition I might have, because I've never participated in taking drugs or anything that could cause me to get this, I was bullied a lot when I was younger, but I'm not sure if that has anything to do with it. I also broke up with a long-term boyfriend and maybe I was really broken up about that when I had my first delusion,Another suspicion or idea that I had on the source of my systems was also possibly a small case of OCD, because I've always had some little ocd tendencies, but he said that some of my psychotic and unrealistic beliefs/delusions were too far out to be ruled as just ocd. :s I think I also have some depersonalization symptoms though, or disassociation where my mind plays tricks on me and wants me to believe a false story or explanation or even another personal identity, that I'm actually not who I think I am and someone trapped in my body, heavily disturbing delusions like that, it hasn't happened in awhile though....and usually these symptoms, delusions or otherwise come out during stress, but I guess they also come out at random times too...and I have cognitive problems, it's hard for me to concentrate sometimes, and to write, I used to be a pretty good, creative writer and now I never know what to say, can't think of anything, and words don't flow...and sometimes I ramble when I'm talking to people or can't get the words out that I want to say, I guess I have a large vocabulary blockage. =/ but I'm just very tired of all of it. I don't know, but if anyone could give me some insight or a guess on what this might be, that would be wonderful.

First of all, I don't know much, but it looks like you have exactly what you said - major depression with psychotic features. Depression and psychotic features actually appear quite a lot together. I'm not sure but I think that as with schizophrenia, the trigger could have been anything that you describe, like losing your friends, but the real cause hidden beneath is unknown.

Have you gotten in touch with other ill people and talked? Do you have any friends now? How are you parents treating you?

I understand entirely how you feel. I grew up with childhood schizophrenia and major depressive disorder so that is the world i've lived in my entire life. If you need someone to talk to i'll help in any way I can. If it is depression with psychosis, hopefully for you the psychosis will go if you can get the right meds for your depression.

I also grew up with Chilhood-Onset Schizophrenia... but anyway...

You are on very little meds. An up in your seroquel will help the psychosis much more than 50mg. Just fyi but the average dosage for positive symptoms in Schizophrenia (psychosis) is 600-800mg. So you are a good patch away from being treated. Be patient, I know you are dealing with a lot but getting help for any kind of MI takes time.