Loosing grip on reality

Has any here ever felt like they might a ghost or a spirit or a soul wandering the earth? Or that what they are seeing isn't real?

A few weeks ago, I had the scariest experience of my life. I had what I can only described as an episode in which I was fully convinced that I had died and was reliving my last moments. Everything was spinning and repeating itself. Every noise I heard just sounded like static, and voices sounded like jibberish. It was as if everything was being played in reverse. I started to get very scared that I was dead, and I cried because I didn't want death to be like that. Confusing, chaotic, REPETITIVE.

After about 20 minutes (which at the time felt like hours) of laying on the sofa, completely paralyzed, I got up. It all felt like a dream. I'm still not convinced that it wasn't. I started to become extremely paranoid. I felt like I was in a constant state of de ja vu.

Since that night, I haven't felt right. For days after that, I was convinced that I was just a soul wandering the earth, and that everyone around me was just a creation on my mind - imprints of my former life. Even now, I wonder if what I see and experience is truly real. How can I even be sure?

Hi, violettehaze! Have you seen a doctor about this? I think you should, if you can. I think I had an episode when it felt like I was about to have a hallucination about something scary and it felt so real... Then it was like I was still a part of it for a few months and I felt on edge. Sorry I can't be of more help.
Do you have a disorder? Has anything like this happened before? You can be sure that what is going on with this forum is real, and so are we. Feel free to talk here any time.

jasmin wrote:Hi, violettehaze! Have you seen a doctor about this? I think you should, if you can. I think I had an episode when it felt like I was about to have a hallucination about something scary and it felt so real... Then it was like I was still a part of it for a few months and I felt on edge. Sorry I can't be of more help.
Do you have a disorder? Has anything like this happened before? You can be sure that what is going on with this forum is real, and so are we. Feel free to talk here any time.

I stopped seeing my psychitrist because she always made me feel guilty. She diagnosed my as depressed with psychotic features.

I have had things like this happen before, but not nearly as intense. Mostly just hearing things and thinking that people are laughing at me.

You could look for a new psych. She shouldn't have made you feel guilty, but that doesn't mean that they will all be like her. You've got this place too. This must be scary for you. How are you feeling?

jasmin wrote:You could look for a new psych. She shouldn't have made you feel guilty, but that doesn't mean that they will all be like her. You've got this place too. This must be scary for you. How are you feeling?

I'm still struggling. I'm going to call my psychiatrist tomorrow to make an appointment. I'm worried she's going to put me back on medication, but right now that may be the only option.

The meds might help you, if you give them a chance.

nobody believes me either man!! but I know what is happening to me.. i don't know what the hell to do, i keep reading every post thinking it's some secret message to me only, I tried to commit suicide last night with 50 pills, slept it off and i'm ok today, kindof shakey and not feeling too well..

but the hallucinations started prior to me taking the medication, so I don't think it's related.

(((((((bioShock))))))) Please go see a doctor! Don't try to hurt yourself again and come here to talk. How are you feeling?

i'm feeling a little bit better today, yesterday I was hallucinating all day long. I have a feeling today is going to be the same way, but I guess i'll just wait and see.

I can't really afford to go to the doctors, cause I lost my insurance. I also don't know how to explain to the doctors whats going on with me! That is the part that frustrates me the most. I am a very analytical person and I am very good at summarizing my problems, when I go in with a summary of my problems, it seems like the doctors think i'm drug seeking and do not have any issues. I am tired of being re-diagnosed everytime I go to a new doctor, like if I don't explain things exactly right now i'm just having "anxiety" but my 2 previous doctors 1 said bipolar and 1 said schizoaffective.

I'm just so fed up with life, I constantly hear voices telling me to kill myself, I just started having visible hallucinations yesterday, and it was prevalent throughout the entire day. But if I go to a doctor, and i'm not currently hearing voices or seeing things, they act like it's all fake.

Is that normal? That you have to go through an attack in front of the doctor for them to believe it's real? I mean .. the very fact that this has been going on for me makes me afraid to go to the doctor.

I am pretty sure I have ADHD. I can't read a paragraph and absorb the information without skipping back and re-reading it. When I told my doctor, I had to fill out a form to see if I had ADHD but there was no personal treatment at all, and part of it went to my ex who admittedly lied on my ADHD exam.

I just don't know what to do to get treatment anymore, I am continuously feeling suicidal but also when I see my doctors I don't feel like I can admit that becase I don't want to end up in a mental hospital, so I always tell them i'm fine.

I'm just having some real problems here. I've lost everything within the past 6months, my car, my home, my job, my dignity.. everything. I may use drugs ( marijuana) and other hard drugs in the past, but honestly, why would I give up EVERYTHING just for a few pills.. I don't get their treatment towards me, I don't understand how to fix my life at this point.

Where are you staying if you lost your home? How did it happen? Maybe talking about it a bit can help with the depression. I also feel better if I have cardio exercise regularly and if I can talk to a friend. This seems like a bad situation, but hope isn't lost. Maybe you could find a new job if you felt better at some point and then be able to get some treatment.
No, I don't think it's normal for psychs to think that you're making things up. You could try to write everything that's wrong on paper and give that to them and don't make it too short.
You haven't lost your dignity, no one and nothing can take that away from you