Is There Justice For Voices?

Have you ever wished that the voices would stop being so hostile, cruel, and in their words, callous? Well I often do, because they seem to get into this 'mood' where they just hate me. And even though they are delicate little flowers, and if you insult them, they immediately get angry and hate and disturb you more, I usually keep 'negotiating' (negotiating better treatment of me - a word I got from the Hearing Voices Movement coping strategies discussions) and have to make sure I don't think anything that upsets them, and I try to keep the situation diffused. I always feel that it is my best interests to try and keep the siutation civilised. But the voices certainly are not civilised.

However, today I had a strange experience. I have to say that I realise the voices are hallucinations, in order to prevent this post from being moderated off the forum. My voices spend a lot of my time talking about how they get away with a lot, especially their terrible brutish treatment of me. ANd they often say things that amount to the following sentiment: "I bet you wish we would stop hating and hurting you"

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They, all my voices, often remark while they are hurting me without mitigation, "there is no justice for schizophrenics". I Have been brutilised, injured, traumatised, and nearly hated to death for years by these voices. And now that they are getting into trouble I am confonted by a curious dilemma. If I rejoice, despite the fact that I am definately not the sort of person anyway, I feel that I would be as bad as them. How can I ever derive pleasure from other peoples pain, especially and particularly because I have been put through so much pain myself?

Oh well. It turned out starngely. While I was out shopping, I heard this tumoultuous "brilliant" outburst and one of the two voices (the female one)(I misattribute a lot) in extremele elation said "I got off, I got off. They just rang me and I am not going to be investigated. They said what I gave them was exactly the same as my tax returen and I'm not being investigated. I'm so happy. I'm dancing. I'm so happy". SO I said "good for you. I'm glad to hear that".

Then 5 seconds later, my feelings went to $#%^, and one of the (other - male) voice said "sucked in Scott, sucked in big time" and then immediately another male said "ah, sucked in scott. Sucked in. One for the little guys" (she was being investigated for $2m fraud). "Sucked in Scott".

I got so upset because I intentionally did not get happy when they told me about the investigations, that I went and hurt myslef by buying narcotics.

Since then, they keep saying "Because you're getting on, we're going to to take that $70.00", referring to $7.00 I have in my account (they can see, so they know my passwords"

What's baffling andf confusing about all this, is that they are only hallucinations.

Meh