Am I Psychotic?

I’m 21 years old. Ever since my parents’, brother’s, and sister’s death at a young age, followed by abuse by my new parents, I haven’t been “all there” mentally and spiritually. Grades have always been straight A’s, but I can’t seem to function well. For example, at work, I’ll be doing something completely wrong... putting dishes in odd places like in the microwave, etc. I sometimes laugh randomly (mostly as a coping mechanism when the bad thoughts are going through my head). I have no emotion whatsoever, besides the random laughing spells. Often I’ll drive well far past the turn to my road without realizing it until I reach the next town (10 miles away). I exercise to the point where I completely ignore the signs my body is telling me to stop, often fainting. I stare off into the distance for unusually long periods of time. I sometimes go a whole week without sleep. I’ve impulsively shaved my head many times. My thoughts (and writing) are very scatterbrained. Ive always been very paranoid and delusional. I’ve made many ER trips due to thinking I was dying. One time was because I swallowed a small amount of toothpaste. Another time I convinced myself that my brain fluid was leaking. they IV’d me, I ripped out the IV because I thought my arm was filling up with water. I don’t have any hallucinations, or hear voices (that I know of). This has been going on for far too long to tell if that inner voice is actually psychosis. What would you diagnose this as based on the given info?

Hi Whotook,
I believe no one who is aware of the forum rules will attempt to diagnose you. It is not allowed. Why don‘t you go to a professional and take a test? Imo the important question is whether you need help. If you feel bad with all that, you should see a specialist. Have a nice day.

Sounds like a variety of issues that a psychiatrist could help you with therapy and/or medication. Sounds like you had a traumatic childhood which could be showing signs of PTSD now. Sounds like dissociation is one of your major symptoms. I would print out your post and show it to a psychiatrist and discuss your issues in more detail.