Hey new guy here

Hey everyone, this is my first time coming to any kind of mental health website so I hope I can get something out of it. Let me start off by saying I'm a little concerned about how the moderators must observe my posts before they're ever put up, that just seems weird to me. I hope this post makes it up I guess well see.

I've been diagnosed with schizo-affective disorder after a total break from reality that left me extremely shaken up. It was by far the scariest experience I had ever experienced but at the same time and in the psychotic-breaks since I've learned a lot about reality since. I don't know if any of you know what I'm getting at? anyways it's nice being somewhere where people can relate to this kind of thing, I'll post more when my head is clear.

Ok so I'm just gonna go on a limb here and assume it's safe to tell about my experience's with schizoaffective disorder. My symptoms have becoming really annoying/debilitating again lately. The main one being how reality seems to always be "uncertain" "unfamiliar" or otherwise right in front of my eyes. For instance thins morning it literally felt like I woke up inside some kind of snow globe that was pitch black with a bunch of black or picalated snow flakes all around me just vibrating constantly. When I try to focus my eyes while looking at the couch I see something on it but it's rapidly changing between lots of different possible things. Two of them being a black lighter and a black remote, it's not until I focus my eyes and clearly focus on it that it turns into the lighter.

This goes on all day and only gets worse before I'm on the verge of an episode. Can anyone relate to this? It makes it really hard to function in reality when reality is constantly shifting.

thapainmaker wrote: Let me start off by saying I'm a little concerned about how the moderators must observe my posts before they're ever put up, that just seems weird to me. I hope this post makes it up I guess well see.

We actually do that because of all the spam we get.

But yes, I can relate to that, somewhat. I used to wake up to "demons" standing and dancing around in my bedroom. I'd see fire, almost as if I was in an actual Hell, and it made it hard to even get out of bed and go on with my day.

My therapist recommended sleeping with a nightlight. While it doesn't always help, it did take it down a lot. That and he recommended working with my psychiatrist to find the right medication for me. That took some time, but we got there.